Bourgeois Shangri-La is quite a catchy song.
It makes me feel like dancing to it.
And I don't dance.


holidays ending soon. :(
don't want to go back to school! :(
exams in term 4! :(

anyway, i was just reading people's statuses.
one of them was-
why are they rabbit satays? they're so cute!

i say: well chickens and cows are cute too.



anyway, there's this website i found- it's got lots of shocking and weird facts.
read it.

believe-or-not.blogspot.com

http://believe-or-not.blogspot.com/2009/09/chinese-farmer-grows-baby-shaped-pears.html




and i've mastered nocturne in c# minor since like 2 weeks ago if you're wondering.
don't play much of it these days anymore.

so, there is no law & order uk next week- instead there'll be ncis behind the scenes next week. :(
i want law & order uk! hopefully it will be back the next week.
so i'm bored.
i didn't end up practicing much of nocturne in c#minor today. i'm up to the start of the second page.
and really slow on left hand.
i was going to water my sunflowers but there were poo?
and i haven't read much of night either.
i am currently up to page 22.

i also want to learn the revolutionary etude also by chopin.
listening to it sends chills- you can feel the emotion while he was composing it, as it was composed right after the war. so you can feel all the dramatic emotions, and it's an amazing song- it has lots of emotions listeners can feel and imagine what it was like.

Chopin is amazing.
Is he becoming my favourite composer?
♫♪♬

The Pianist

I just finished watching 'The Pianist' by Roman Polanski, based on the true story of Władysław Szpilman. Władysław Szpilman was a famous Polish musician until he and his family were deported to a Warsaw Ghetto due to the German invasion of Poland. He had a friend who worked for the Nazis, hence when all of his family members were going on the train, his friend pulled him and said to save himself.
"Szpilman never saw any members of his family again. The train they were on took them to Treblinka. None of them survived the war." (from wiki)
[The Pianist is a memoir written by the Polish musician of Jewish origins Władysław Szpilman. He tells how he survived the German deportations of Jews to extermination camps, the 1943 destruction of the Warsaw Ghetto, and the 1944 Warsaw Uprising during World War II. (from wikipedia)]

It's a truly amazing movie, depicting such cruelty us human beings can be, yet we must not be stereotypical as there are bad people and there are good people. It's a sad, touching yet a story of hope, not only a story, but a true record of what had happened- a true story of survival and hope. Could it be that his music was what helped him get through- hence the name of the movie- 'The Pianist'?
Anyhow, it's a truly amazing movie- I now want to read the memoir by Wladyslaw Szpilman. Just reading the words from his book on wikipedia sends me the chills, and my eye teary.
Wladyslaw Szpilman is my hero.

I am now inspired and motivated to finish reading- "NIGHT" by Elie Wiesel, and practice Chopin on the Piano, and try to find the memoir 'The Pianist' by Wladyslaw Szpilman to read for this 3 week holiday. :)
♫

tired

whee there's a cake with a candle next to the B- the blogger symbol thing. is it blogger's birthday? happy birthday blogger!

i am really tired and my legs hurt. :(
hence i have a day of resting at home today.
thank you for understanding father.

these 2 previous days has been quite eventful, not really.
human relations with scotch was such a bore.
not fun.
just awkward.
and weird.
but after that was good cos on the tram i was updated with some juicy gossip!

then the next day, i had to wake up early too, and my legs were sore but i still wanted to go, so i endured the pain and i got on a train, got off at parliament station and climbed those grand steps of the parliament house, boy do i feel important!
the building was magnificent! it had huge pillars, inside and outside, and there was a statue of our majesty the queen, and there were paintings of royalty and premiers- including steve bracks.
and just whoah!

the unya conference itself was interesting as well. first we had a guest speaker called tom- who was/is the young australian of the year. he spoke about having passion, vision and action. passion- something you really love about, vision- what you want to see, what will happen, what is the perfect world you want to see, action- "be the change you want to see in the world"- mahatma gandhi
he didn't really say that quote but he was basically talking about it.
he talked about the rwandan genocide and how he went to visit them. there was this man called peter and this man called james.
james had killed peter's family, yet they were still sitting next to each other and they were neighbours. tom asked peter why, and peter basically said that if the whole of rwanda won't forgive those who killed their family, then how can we make peace? and that's when i remembered mahatma gandhi's quote- "be the change you want to see in the world". peter wanted to see peace and forgiveness, so he was the first one to forgive james- sat next to him, and live next to him.

then we were shown a presentation of the global poverty project.
then it was recess, then we re put into groups of our goals- since there were 8 main goals to improve poverty. and my group was group 2- that was education. we had discussions, then it was lunch time.
we had pizza and we socialised.
then we had another discussion- we were given a scenario of south ossetia wanting to break apart from georgia, what would you do to resolve it.
then we got free smiggle pencil cases if we wanted to sign up for the unya mailing list.
then we had a model un debate.
then we had to leave early for music roundabout.
tiredddddddd!

we, as human beings are often too absorbed by themselves that they do not know what is going on around them.
what we have been learning about in science is comsmology, and we now know that when you look up at a patch of sky- you can only see that it's blue and there are white clouds, so what, but actually there are lots of galaxies, stars, and planets, beyond that, and we can't see it so we don't care about it.
this is what me and the awesome unis was talking about in re, and she said something about being in a fish tank and you don't care.
then after school, on parer street there was this person in front of us in his/her car in the middle of the road, waiting for his/her daughter, in the middle of the road!
not caring about people behind, creating a traffic jam?
people are often too absorbed by themselves.

mr.t: what else is limited? what else are we going to run out of in the future?
me: time.


haha i laugh at myself.

they say cats always sit on mats,
but my cats never sat on the mat,
actually, they did, they used to,
until they found a better place to nap,
that is my lap.

HI ALEX.
nice to know you're following me. :D
do you have a blog? what is it? i shall follow you too. :D

i hate school.
and the cold doesn't help as stated by gemma and lisha.
we've been getting so much work and pressure.
subject forms due friday, maths test thursday.
farrrrrrrrrrrrrk.

i hate my maths teacher.
i hate my science teacher.

PLEASE DON'T LET ME HAVE THEM NEXT YEAR.
PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

i keep on getting headaches recently.
ugh.

i should start studying for my maths test!
i have to!

sigh.

i hate school.


aww alicia, i hope you're feeling better.
at least you've got friends who care for you! :)
we'll always be there for you, alicia!
hug! :)

melba hall was magnificent.
truly amazing.


the last performance was truly brilliant.
she has inspired me to practice my viola everyday. :)

i have a headache.
uggghh.

this week has been shit.
started the week with getting our maths test back.
as usual, i got shit results.
ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i don't even care anymore.
i know i'm dumb.
i'm stupid at maths.
and stupid o, she's such a bitch. she still won't fix my report, when she clearly said that it was higher than what she put on my report.
fucking hell i just want to punch her in the face.
grr.

i hate maths.
i have been failing maths all throughout this year, because of fucking o.



i hate school.


and then at choir today, i was sitting next to this girl who sang loud, but always sings out of tune.
and beccy thought it was me.
and she was like "you sing off tune"
i told her it's not me, it's the person next to me!
and she was like "noooo it's you. cos i can hear you. cos you're sitting next to me."
well it's the person next to me, i don't sing off tune, unlike you, thank you very much, bitch.

sigh.
we have another maths test next week.
and i've got my careers interview on monday.
apparently s won't let people do ib if they got a c.
screw her, i'm doing ib.
and i'll be doing standard maths, so i will be fine.
forms due 28th.




i feel like a doormat, i've felt like i've been trampled on people, letting people do whatever they want, say whatever they want to me, and i've let them hurt me. i've lost my sense of confidence, pride, self-esteem and assertiveness. i need to go back to the person i was before. maybe i've been influenced by the people i hang with. cos they're all so self-centred, selfish, bossy and not very nice people.



i now want to be a prosecutor.

the telegraph cables hum.
it's 11 pm soon and i have school tomorrow. :(
today, the weather was melbourne.
cold, wet, windy. bleh.
and the forecast was 21 degrees.
like i can do that.
ewwy science, commerce, maths, english, double p.e.
oh noes, we're getting our tests back tomorrow. i DON'T want my test back. :S
and eww double p.e.
i like history cos we're learning about china- a country i hate.
and mr.p + marrisa were so religious, because it's so china.
ARGH
AND ONE THING I CAN'T GET OVER!
we watched this indo movie over 3 lessons- which has a double entrende meaning- "what's wrong with Cinta" and "what's up with love"
ARGH! the poem ranga writes at the end is soooo sweeeet.
but i hate the ending!
stupid ranga! just leave cinta alone like that.
:(
it's horrible!
c: i love you.
r: i love you too.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to. -hands book- read the last page.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to.

and then he leaves.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
but the poem was real sweet though... "what's up with love?" <3



♥

The Last Day On Earth- Kate Miller-Heidke
Look down the ground below is crumbling
Look up the stars are all exploding

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

Between the dust and the debris
There's a light surrounding you and me

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

And you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held.
I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me

In my head I replay our conversations
Over and over til they feel like hallucinations
You know me? I love to lose my mind
And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same
I ache, I ache, I ache inside.

currently typing at 11:57PM
yawn.
and about to finish apollo justice.
yay long weekend!
today was shit.
so glad it's the weekends.
bleh.
sleep in.
no i'm not coming to church. you just wasted your credit.
i don't care anymore.
i'm back to my original ground zero opinion.
people who go to church are not like what the bible tells them to.

full stop.

i like it when people read my blog and comments, but please don't be a try-hard who thinks you're so famous and popular that everyone knows you. cos i don't, and not even introducing yourself but instead saying something in a foreign language which i do not speak.
just yeah. don't make my week even worse.

this week was shit.

whee.
life sucks.

once in a blue moon

once in a while would you hear me swear.
but WHAT THE FUCK.
TODAY WAS SUCH A SHIT DAY.

GRR.
I FOUND OUT WHY MY "FRIEND" WAS BEING REALLY NICE YESTERDAY. I THOUGHT SHE HAD CHANGED. BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY BECAUSE HER FRIEND WASN'T AT SCHOOL, SO SHE WAS ONLY USING ME TO BE HER "FRIEND".
WHAT THE FUCK.
SHE WAS PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH.
SHE WAS LIKE "OHH I TOLD THEM WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY."
THEM BEING PEOPLE I HATE.
AND I WAS LIKE "WHAT THE FUCK HILARY. THAT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU GO AROUND TELLING EVERYONE YOU BITCH."
AND THEN HILARY REPLIES ANNOYINGLY "WELL I WOULDN'T MIND IF THAT WAS ME."
GRR I JUST WANTED TO FULL ON PUNCH HER IN THE FACE.
THE STUPID ANNOYING SUCK UP BITCH.

AND MY STUPID MATHS TEACHER, SHE MADE A FUCKING MISTAKE ON MY REPORT, GIVING ME A D. WHICH I NEVER GOT. AND WON'T FIX IT.
SHE WAS LIKE "I DON'T THINK IT WOULD CHANGE."
AND IT'S LIKE FUCK YOU BITH. JUST FIX MY REPORT.
GRR ANOTHER PERSON I WANT TO PUNCH IN THE FACE.

AND THEN LASTLY, I WAS LOOKING FOR PEACE SO I WENT TO CG.
TO FIND GRACE HO PISSED OFF AT ME AGAIN.
SHE IGNORED ME, HIT ME WITH HER BAG AND STOMPED OUT OF HER ROOM.
APPARENTLY SHE WASN'T PISSED OFF AT ME.
BUT THEN WHY THE FUCK WOULD SHE DO THAT TO ME THEN.
GRR I HATE PEOPLE WHO TAKE OUT THEIR ANGER ON OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE CLUELESS.
AND SHE HURT MY FEELINGS.
SHE JUST MADE MY DAY EVEN WORSE.

TO EVERYONE MENTIONED ABOVE.
THANKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE WORST THAN IT ALREADY IS.

an eventful day

yesterday was pretty good cos there was no maths, and i got to use laptops for 4 periods. :D

today was quite eventful.
before school was string power.
*BORING!
the pieces are soo easy, it's boring.
and as i was walking in, i could hear how bad it sounded- it was like out of tune. and the songs are easy and people can't play properly! i want to move orchestras!

first period was maths, but it wasn't so bad, cos we just got notes for worded simultaneous equations, and she talked to us about maths subjects in year 11 and 12.
second period was history- YAY I SAW KIM! <33
i haven't seen her for 4 days and tomorrow's going to be her last day! :(

third and fourth period was p.e.
it was badminton, so it wasn't that bad, and i played this time. :D
except next week's gonna be aerobics.
eww.
when it wasn't our turn to play, fiona, ellie and i went outside to practice, but it was windy, so we played, or we were supposed to play knockout with a soccer ball. but then ellie hogged the ball and kept going around the court shooting into netball hoops, so fiona had this idea of running leaving ellie behind by herself. i thought that was mean, but ellie didn't want to share, so i went with fiona.

fourth and fifth was english and science.
english was okay. we only listened to people's presentation and perspectives about gilbert grape and the main themes of the movie.
science.
henriques.
what can i say.
we only corrected homework questions for the whole lesson and did this flow chart thing for respiratory and the excretion system.
anyway, she was going around checking if people did their homework.
so i did the sheet but i didn't do the other bit that were questions from the computer.
so i quickly did it in class and she was like "where are the questions?" and i'm like, "i didn't write it." and she replied, "did you just scribble this quickly in class?" and i said "no, i did it before." and she pointed out "but this answer- this is what i said." and i insisted, "yeah, but i knew it before you said it." and she, being the annoying -insert word here- that she is, she said "yeah you did it in class", i replied "no." and continuously she said "yeah." and i'm like "no".
and as she was a few steps away, i said to miranda, who was sitting next to me, "oh my gosh, she thinks i did it in class." loudly so that she could hear.
and miranda didn't do her homework either, she only wrote the answers as we were going through them, and henriques was like "no this is not good, you have to write questions and answer." and miranda was like whatever.
but then as she went to check people's homework in the next row behind us, i said to miranda loudly, with an intention so that henriques can hear- "hey you know if you write the questions and answers on a separate piece of paper- it's wasting paper."
m: yeah i know, it's so stupid.
i: yeah, and they're teaching us to recycle- look our next project is recycling. she's such a hypocrite.
m: i know it's so bad. ohhh.
i: yeah i know, and then you know if you waste paper, you waste trees, and we need trees for oxygen- to breathe, and we're learning about the respiratory system.
m: yeah we're learning about it. it's so bad.
i: yeah and then if you write more- you use more sweat- using the excretory system. so you waste sweat and paper.
m: oh my gosh, i know.
i: yeah we need trees to breathe! if she makes us write questions and answers on another piece of paper, she's making us waste trees, and without trees, we won't be able to breathe, cos we need oxygen from trees, and then we die!
m: i know! this is sooo bad! it's so stupid!
and then not long after that i heard henriques said the same thing to eunice- that you need to write questions and answers on another piece of paper. then i heard henriques was like "no, it's not wasting paper." eunice must've complained that it's wasting paper. and henriques was like "no, blah blah" with like no actual answer/reason, she just went on about random things.
soon after that- the bell went. miranda said- "ohhhh it's so stupid!" i replied, "what's stupid?" and miranda said, "the teacher!" - i agreed, i said, "i know! what is this!? global warming!? i'm gonna talk to mr.carbo (this science teacher who's all about being green)".
miranda: are you really going to complain?
i: yeah, it's called justice. i'm going to stand up to what is right.

and then we all went home.
alicia came with me in my car to k-mart, to get stuff for kim, cos tomorrow's her last day. :(
we got her stuff from the $2 shop first- we got this pink bag, cos kim's favourite colour's pink, which says 'Australia' and has a picture of a koala, then, we got her a coin bank thing, a really big badge/pin that says "proud australian", a notebook and pen, 2 australian magnets, and chocolate for the farewell party tomorrow. that all costed us $12. and then we went to coles- we were originally going to get her tim-tams and doritos but then we saw this huge packet of lollipops for $1.00 and it was 1kg. so we put back all the other things and got it instead. and i got myself portwine aeroplane jelly. yum! :p
so all together was $13. but i paid for the lollipops. so now i owe alicia $5.55.
and then alicia went to the tram stop, and i walked home.



OHH AND THEN I CHECKED MY EMAIL, AND THERE WAS THIS EMAIL FROM NINENEWS- OH MY GOSH!

A woman charged with murdering her three-and-a-half-week-old son used a knife and two swords to dismember the child and ate parts of his body, including his brain, before stabbing herself in the torso and slicing her own throat, police say.

read the full story here http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/842505/woman-accused-of-baby-murder-ate-brain?cmp=nl_news_28july2009_6&mch=newsletter

hi thur.
new layout. :D
i've been changing layouts recently, cos i haven't been satisfied.
now, i'll stick to basic. :)
argh!
weekends ending soon!
oh noes! :(
monday- school tomorrow. :(
lots of homework due next week.
all on tuesday.
geography essay, english scene analysis, science kidney dissection sheet, and catching up on maths.
and guess what, i haven't started any of them!
i so can't be bothered doing homework.
grr i hate homework. :(
i need motivation.
it's cold.
and i'm lazy.

I am bored.
I feel like talking.
I guess I'm on high.
hmm.
okay- highlight of the dayyyy.....
was probably, how at around 9ish i felt like shin ramyun.
and then not long after that, at like 9:30ish my dad was eating korean noodles.
and i didn't tell him i wanted to cook shin ram yun, i was originally going to make them at like 10ish, but then he was eating them before i got out of the study.
and i was like "whoa."
and my dad gave me some noodles.
yum. :D

secondd, i found out why grace ho was rude, ignorant, selfish, and looked like she was pssed off with me. the truth is, it's not me. it's someone else. but still, i hate people who take out anger on other people. but then i know that she's not that bad. erhm.

but bad thing- i was sitting next to this old man, and he won't frikin move- he took up all my seat space! like he bent his hand, and it kept hitting me!
argh! frikk! annoying! arghhhh!

finally, today was the last day of the evangelism, so next week's gonna be cg.
hummmmm.
i was thinking that if we ended up splitting, i won't go to cg anymore.. but i don't know.
we're not splitting yet.
and i have to play the viola.
so yeah.

oh and my friend's love life isn't going so well. like they were together last year, and then they broke up, and then they got back again, and then apparently her parents found out and made her broke up with him again. but she's only 14, and he just turned 15. like wtf, you guys, who cares about love life anyway. you've got other things you need to prioritise before love and relationships. at 15 years of age, we don't even know the meaning of 'love'.
so who cares, but i was just being nice and i said that she shouldn't worry cos i love her. :)

i've got so much homework due next week!
argh!
but i'm so lazy lah. :o

Religion

What I really hate about religion is when people insult other religions, they think only their religion is the right way, and all the other religions are "bad" and "the works of the devil." I went to church because they promised this great thing that you will find peace and happiness because God is always with you, and you have to be a Christian to go to heaven, because that was what the Bible said. So, I had people who I really loved, pass away, they weren't Christians, but I truly believed that they went to heaven, and I kept telling myself that someday I will see them again, and my whole family, the 5 of us, will live happily ever after eternally, forever in Heaven.

Talking about harsh, ignorant, non-empathic, not caring about others, Christians, or particularly Seventh-Day Adventists, believe that you don't go to heaven when you die. You wait until Christ's second coming, and those with Christ will rise first, so apparently when you die, you sleep until Christ's second coming, and then if you're a Christian, you'll go to heaven, and if you're not... then... you won't?

You see, I really want to see my family again, and the people who I loved who had passed away, weren't Christians, so if I'm a Christian, apparently I'll go to a different place than them, resulting in, I'll never see them. :( The thought makes me really sad. :( And I REALLY want to see my family again, so I just won't be a Christian then.

Listening to gospels and sermons had me thinking, and made me come up with lots of burning questions I want to know, when I ask someone, they'll be like "Do Bible study to find out."
Hence, my curiosity leads me to Bible study. Being the curious self that I am, there were lots of things I wanted to know about, that to me wasn't clear. The Christian faith relies on the Bible, because apparently God had sent his Holy Spirit to the prophets to write them in. How do we know that is the case? Is there proof to support that evidence? I once asked "So, where does the Bible come from? When was it written? And who wrote it?" and a Christian, my Bible study teacher said, "They were found in the Dead Sea, that's why they're also called Dead Sea Scrolls. It's proven to be thousands of years old." I personally don't know whether to believe this or not. Another question asked by this curious cat, is that if God loved/loves each and everyone of us equally, why is life not fair? Some people are rich, some people are poor, some people are smart, some stupid, and why is there sufferings and pain and diseases? Why is there war?

Apparently, the answer to that is because of the Satan. But, if God is the greatest, can't he beat Satan?
But it hasn't be answered by my Bible study teacher yet, the one who said that it's because of Satan is this girl, who thinks she's the best Christian and person ever.

I was listening to Michael Jackson, Man In the Mirror, this song touched my heart, it's about making a change, and bringing peace to the world. "If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make a change." This song is about not being a hypocrite, and if you do want to see world peace, then, start by you. As Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." I remember these quotes off by heart, I remember peace quotes and inspirational quotes. So, as I was thinking and deep into making a change, Grace Ho, rudely ripped off the two earphones off my ears harshly. This had just made me angry. She was like "It's Sabbath." and I was like ... so..... what?! grrrrr.

Then every teen went upstairs to help with the little kids, and then this woman suddenly said "There is also a service downstairs with english translation for the older teens." just when I come in. ANd I was like "FRIKK I'M NOT OLD. AND WHY CAN'T I STAY HERE" so I went down. I was planning to stay down, listen to the sermon and listen to what other flaws there are. But then, no one my age was there. SO I went back upstairs. SUch an effort it was, seeing as I have a knee problem, it was hard to go up and down the stairs not as easy as 123 as some people find it, but it turns out I have just wasted my effort, energy and time. I came back in, and the woman said again "Grace, do you want to take your friend downstairs, there is English translation there for the sermon, for the older teens"
in my heart i was angry, "FRIKKKKK WOMANNNN I HAVE JUST BEEN THERE GAAAAARRRRRRRR STUPID CAN'T YOU SEE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE OLDER THAN ME SITTING THERE. WHY DO YOU HATE ME. FRIKKKK!"
just cos i'm tall. there's like this 17yearold who doesn't look 17, because she's short, and she gets to sit there while i, 15 years of age, don't. AASDOIHWIOEHWIO KASDASDJKLH OIEWHF TALK ABOUT DISCRIMINATION TO AVERAGE-HEIGHTED PEOPLE!

so anyway. blah blah. the sermon went on for a long time. It was meant to start at 7:30 and finish at 9. But no, the preacher chose to preach until 9:30. When I got home, it was like 10-ish, and I think everyone is asleep already.

Being an unaccepting injustice kind of person, I decided, I needed to speak out.

Many flaws found in the preachers preachings-

preacher: the bombing in Jakarta, was because of religion.
truth: NOT! IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF RELIGION!
get it right, do your research, even i know.

preacher: michael jackson suicide with drugs.
truth: WRONG! DON'T ASSUME! IT WAS NOT PROVEN, AND HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN YET!

preacher: the buddhists worship this god who died and became a god. (and he also said something about it being the works of the devil.)
truth: WRONG! NEVER HEARD OF IT. DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT OTHER RELIGION! BUDDHISM WAS FOUND WAYYYY LONGGGGGGGGG BEFORE CHRISTIANITY, SO DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT IT!


At the end of the day, I am angry. I can't accept injustice. I can't accept how lots of people can just believe in flaws, mistakes and myths like that. I am considering to not go to church anymore, because it is pretty clear that even the preacher, the pastor, is not holy, and does not know what he is talking about, doing injustice, saying bad things about other religion.

I am confused with religion, at first, I was a Buddhist, because back where I was from, my family used to often go to temples to pray, but as I moved, we started to not go, because it was far from where I live. Then my mother's friend invited her to go to this temple of Taoism near our house, so we went there, we all believed in it, and became a vegetarian. But then something happened, which I will not post publicly, and they kept asking for money. According to them, you can go to heaven with money. I asked them "What if you're evil, like a mafia, but you're rich, can you go to heaven?" "Yes, he can pay off his sins." and i was like WHATTERRRRR SINCE WHENNN ?!?! THAT'S SO NOT FAIR! WHAT IF YOU'RE POOR!?!?
so then, we started not going there anymore.

Then for a while, I became an atheist. I didn't believe in God. Because of the unfairness, and if there was really a God, why does he let some people suffer?

Then Easter Camp this year, the speaker somehow convinced me to believe in Christianity. But now, I'm starting to lose that belief.

Religions- you only believe in them for a little while, and then you start noticing their flaws and inconsistencies, and stop believing.




SO, for the meantime, I think I'll just go with the flow and stick with my family. :)

hahaha i love alicia.
she made my day.

"mr.thomas, what time did you sleep last night?"
*everyone looking at lisha weirdly*
"what time did you sleep last night mr. thomas, you spelt mustang, mustard."
*whole class breaks into laughter*
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay you may be reading this and be like "....WT..?!"
but it's one of those moments where you had to be there to get it and laugh.