Tuesday, February 24, 2009

since no one cares about me.
i might as well put my blog private, or delete it.
how sad.
life is really sad for me.
no one understands, and those who knows what i've been through, just doesn't care.
it's really sad. but all i can do is cry.
at school, i just seem like a happy and cheerful person, but relaly inside me, that's not what it is.
i'm just putting a mask, so people don't know who i really am.
but if i don't pretend to be happy, then i'll be depressed and unsocial.
but when i am around people, i pretend to talk alot and be hyper and like i have a really great life.. but really i am lying.
I am lying to the people around me, and I'm lying to myself.
No one understands.
It's just really hard to speak out if no one understands.
Life is really sad.. for me.

People say how perfect the world is, but it really is imperfect, for me.
Nothing in this world is perfect.
Although, there is an exception- as there are unfairness in this world, hence there are many people whose lives are perfect.

I'm still searching for that talent, that I've got, that nobody else does, a talent that I can excel in and become the very best of it, in the world.
I've been passionate about debating, but lots of other people seem to be better at it than I am.
I know, of that saying climbing a mountain starts with one step.
but it's really hard.

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