mr.t: what else is limited? what else are we going to run out of in the future?
me: time.


haha i laugh at myself.

they say cats always sit on mats,
but my cats never sat on the mat,
actually, they did, they used to,
until they found a better place to nap,
that is my lap.

HI ALEX.
nice to know you're following me. :D
do you have a blog? what is it? i shall follow you too. :D

i hate school.
and the cold doesn't help as stated by gemma and lisha.
we've been getting so much work and pressure.
subject forms due friday, maths test thursday.
farrrrrrrrrrrrrk.

i hate my maths teacher.
i hate my science teacher.

PLEASE DON'T LET ME HAVE THEM NEXT YEAR.
PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

i keep on getting headaches recently.
ugh.

i should start studying for my maths test!
i have to!

sigh.

i hate school.


aww alicia, i hope you're feeling better.
at least you've got friends who care for you! :)
we'll always be there for you, alicia!
hug! :)

melba hall was magnificent.
truly amazing.


the last performance was truly brilliant.
she has inspired me to practice my viola everyday. :)

i have a headache.
uggghh.

this week has been shit.
started the week with getting our maths test back.
as usual, i got shit results.
ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i don't even care anymore.
i know i'm dumb.
i'm stupid at maths.
and stupid o, she's such a bitch. she still won't fix my report, when she clearly said that it was higher than what she put on my report.
fucking hell i just want to punch her in the face.
grr.

i hate maths.
i have been failing maths all throughout this year, because of fucking o.



i hate school.


and then at choir today, i was sitting next to this girl who sang loud, but always sings out of tune.
and beccy thought it was me.
and she was like "you sing off tune"
i told her it's not me, it's the person next to me!
and she was like "noooo it's you. cos i can hear you. cos you're sitting next to me."
well it's the person next to me, i don't sing off tune, unlike you, thank you very much, bitch.

sigh.
we have another maths test next week.
and i've got my careers interview on monday.
apparently s won't let people do ib if they got a c.
screw her, i'm doing ib.
and i'll be doing standard maths, so i will be fine.
forms due 28th.




i feel like a doormat, i've felt like i've been trampled on people, letting people do whatever they want, say whatever they want to me, and i've let them hurt me. i've lost my sense of confidence, pride, self-esteem and assertiveness. i need to go back to the person i was before. maybe i've been influenced by the people i hang with. cos they're all so self-centred, selfish, bossy and not very nice people.



i now want to be a prosecutor.

the telegraph cables hum.
it's 11 pm soon and i have school tomorrow. :(
today, the weather was melbourne.
cold, wet, windy. bleh.
and the forecast was 21 degrees.
like i can do that.
ewwy science, commerce, maths, english, double p.e.
oh noes, we're getting our tests back tomorrow. i DON'T want my test back. :S
and eww double p.e.
i like history cos we're learning about china- a country i hate.
and mr.p + marrisa were so religious, because it's so china.
ARGH
AND ONE THING I CAN'T GET OVER!
we watched this indo movie over 3 lessons- which has a double entrende meaning- "what's wrong with Cinta" and "what's up with love"
ARGH! the poem ranga writes at the end is soooo sweeeet.
but i hate the ending!
stupid ranga! just leave cinta alone like that.
:(
it's horrible!
c: i love you.
r: i love you too.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to. -hands book- read the last page.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to.

and then he leaves.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
but the poem was real sweet though... "what's up with love?" <3



♥

The Last Day On Earth- Kate Miller-Heidke
Look down the ground below is crumbling
Look up the stars are all exploding

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

Between the dust and the debris
There's a light surrounding you and me

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

And you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held.
I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me

In my head I replay our conversations
Over and over til they feel like hallucinations
You know me? I love to lose my mind
And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same
I ache, I ache, I ache inside.

currently typing at 11:57PM
yawn.
and about to finish apollo justice.
yay long weekend!
today was shit.
so glad it's the weekends.
bleh.
sleep in.
no i'm not coming to church. you just wasted your credit.
i don't care anymore.
i'm back to my original ground zero opinion.
people who go to church are not like what the bible tells them to.

full stop.

i like it when people read my blog and comments, but please don't be a try-hard who thinks you're so famous and popular that everyone knows you. cos i don't, and not even introducing yourself but instead saying something in a foreign language which i do not speak.
just yeah. don't make my week even worse.

this week was shit.

whee.
life sucks.