i have a headache.
uggghh.

this week has been shit.
started the week with getting our maths test back.
as usual, i got shit results.
ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i don't even care anymore.
i know i'm dumb.
i'm stupid at maths.
and stupid o, she's such a bitch. she still won't fix my report, when she clearly said that it was higher than what she put on my report.
fucking hell i just want to punch her in the face.
grr.

i hate maths.
i have been failing maths all throughout this year, because of fucking o.



i hate school.


and then at choir today, i was sitting next to this girl who sang loud, but always sings out of tune.
and beccy thought it was me.
and she was like "you sing off tune"
i told her it's not me, it's the person next to me!
and she was like "noooo it's you. cos i can hear you. cos you're sitting next to me."
well it's the person next to me, i don't sing off tune, unlike you, thank you very much, bitch.

sigh.
we have another maths test next week.
and i've got my careers interview on monday.
apparently s won't let people do ib if they got a c.
screw her, i'm doing ib.
and i'll be doing standard maths, so i will be fine.
forms due 28th.




i feel like a doormat, i've felt like i've been trampled on people, letting people do whatever they want, say whatever they want to me, and i've let them hurt me. i've lost my sense of confidence, pride, self-esteem and assertiveness. i need to go back to the person i was before. maybe i've been influenced by the people i hang with. cos they're all so self-centred, selfish, bossy and not very nice people.



i now want to be a prosecutor.