Religion
What I really hate about religion is when people insult other religions, they think only their religion is the right way, and all the other religions are "bad" and "the works of the devil." I went to church because they promised this great thing that you will find peace and happiness because God is always with you, and you have to be a Christian to go to heaven, because that was what the Bible said. So, I had people who I really loved, pass away, they weren't Christians, but I truly believed that they went to heaven, and I kept telling myself that someday I will see them again, and my whole family, the 5 of us, will live happily ever after eternally, forever in Heaven.
Talking about harsh, ignorant, non-empathic, not caring about others, Christians, or particularly Seventh-Day Adventists, believe that you don't go to heaven when you die. You wait until Christ's second coming, and those with Christ will rise first, so apparently when you die, you sleep until Christ's second coming, and then if you're a Christian, you'll go to heaven, and if you're not... then... you won't?
You see, I really want to see my family again, and the people who I loved who had passed away, weren't Christians, so if I'm a Christian, apparently I'll go to a different place than them, resulting in, I'll never see them. :( The thought makes me really sad. :( And I REALLY want to see my family again, so I just won't be a Christian then.
Listening to gospels and sermons had me thinking, and made me come up with lots of burning questions I want to know, when I ask someone, they'll be like "Do Bible study to find out."
Hence, my curiosity leads me to Bible study. Being the curious self that I am, there were lots of things I wanted to know about, that to me wasn't clear. The Christian faith relies on the Bible, because apparently God had sent his Holy Spirit to the prophets to write them in. How do we know that is the case? Is there proof to support that evidence? I once asked "So, where does the Bible come from? When was it written? And who wrote it?" and a Christian, my Bible study teacher said, "They were found in the Dead Sea, that's why they're also called Dead Sea Scrolls. It's proven to be thousands of years old." I personally don't know whether to believe this or not. Another question asked by this curious cat, is that if God loved/loves each and everyone of us equally, why is life not fair? Some people are rich, some people are poor, some people are smart, some stupid, and why is there sufferings and pain and diseases? Why is there war?
Apparently, the answer to that is because of the Satan. But, if God is the greatest, can't he beat Satan?
But it hasn't be answered by my Bible study teacher yet, the one who said that it's because of Satan is this girl, who thinks she's the best Christian and person ever.
I was listening to Michael Jackson, Man In the Mirror, this song touched my heart, it's about making a change, and bringing peace to the world. "If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make a change." This song is about not being a hypocrite, and if you do want to see world peace, then, start by you. As Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." I remember these quotes off by heart, I remember peace quotes and inspirational quotes. So, as I was thinking and deep into making a change, Grace Ho, rudely ripped off the two earphones off my ears harshly. This had just made me angry. She was like "It's Sabbath." and I was like ... so..... what?! grrrrr.
Then every teen went upstairs to help with the little kids, and then this woman suddenly said "There is also a service downstairs with english translation for the older teens." just when I come in. ANd I was like "FRIKK I'M NOT OLD. AND WHY CAN'T I STAY HERE" so I went down. I was planning to stay down, listen to the sermon and listen to what other flaws there are. But then, no one my age was there. SO I went back upstairs. SUch an effort it was, seeing as I have a knee problem, it was hard to go up and down the stairs not as easy as 123 as some people find it, but it turns out I have just wasted my effort, energy and time. I came back in, and the woman said again "Grace, do you want to take your friend downstairs, there is English translation there for the sermon, for the older teens"
in my heart i was angry, "FRIKKKKK WOMANNNN I HAVE JUST BEEN THERE GAAAAARRRRRRRR STUPID CAN'T YOU SEE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE OLDER THAN ME SITTING THERE. WHY DO YOU HATE ME. FRIKKKK!"
just cos i'm tall. there's like this 17yearold who doesn't look 17, because she's short, and she gets to sit there while i, 15 years of age, don't. AASDOIHWIOEHWIO KASDASDJKLH OIEWHF TALK ABOUT DISCRIMINATION TO AVERAGE-HEIGHTED PEOPLE!
so anyway. blah blah. the sermon went on for a long time. It was meant to start at 7:30 and finish at 9. But no, the preacher chose to preach until 9:30. When I got home, it was like 10-ish, and I think everyone is asleep already.
Being an unaccepting injustice kind of person, I decided, I needed to speak out.
Many flaws found in the preachers preachings-
preacher: the bombing in Jakarta, was because of religion.
truth: NOT! IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF RELIGION!
get it right, do your research, even i know.
preacher: michael jackson suicide with drugs.
truth: WRONG! DON'T ASSUME! IT WAS NOT PROVEN, AND HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN YET!
preacher: the buddhists worship this god who died and became a god. (and he also said something about it being the works of the devil.)
truth: WRONG! NEVER HEARD OF IT. DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT OTHER RELIGION! BUDDHISM WAS FOUND WAYYYY LONGGGGGGGGG BEFORE CHRISTIANITY, SO DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT IT!
At the end of the day, I am angry. I can't accept injustice. I can't accept how lots of people can just believe in flaws, mistakes and myths like that. I am considering to not go to church anymore, because it is pretty clear that even the preacher, the pastor, is not holy, and does not know what he is talking about, doing injustice, saying bad things about other religion.
I am confused with religion, at first, I was a Buddhist, because back where I was from, my family used to often go to temples to pray, but as I moved, we started to not go, because it was far from where I live. Then my mother's friend invited her to go to this temple of Taoism near our house, so we went there, we all believed in it, and became a vegetarian. But then something happened, which I will not post publicly, and they kept asking for money. According to them, you can go to heaven with money. I asked them "What if you're evil, like a mafia, but you're rich, can you go to heaven?" "Yes, he can pay off his sins." and i was like WHATTERRRRR SINCE WHENNN ?!?! THAT'S SO NOT FAIR! WHAT IF YOU'RE POOR!?!?
so then, we started not going there anymore.
Then for a while, I became an atheist. I didn't believe in God. Because of the unfairness, and if there was really a God, why does he let some people suffer?
Then Easter Camp this year, the speaker somehow convinced me to believe in Christianity. But now, I'm starting to lose that belief.
Religions- you only believe in them for a little while, and then you start noticing their flaws and inconsistencies, and stop believing.
SO, for the meantime, I think I'll just go with the flow and stick with my family. :)
What I really hate about religion is when people insult other religions, they think only their religion is the right way, and all the other religions are "bad" and "the works of the devil." I went to church because they promised this great thing that you will find peace and happiness because God is always with you, and you have to be a Christian to go to heaven, because that was what the Bible said. So, I had people who I really loved, pass away, they weren't Christians, but I truly believed that they went to heaven, and I kept telling myself that someday I will see them again, and my whole family, the 5 of us, will live happily ever after eternally, forever in Heaven.
Talking about harsh, ignorant, non-empathic, not caring about others, Christians, or particularly Seventh-Day Adventists, believe that you don't go to heaven when you die. You wait until Christ's second coming, and those with Christ will rise first, so apparently when you die, you sleep until Christ's second coming, and then if you're a Christian, you'll go to heaven, and if you're not... then... you won't?
You see, I really want to see my family again, and the people who I loved who had passed away, weren't Christians, so if I'm a Christian, apparently I'll go to a different place than them, resulting in, I'll never see them. :( The thought makes me really sad. :( And I REALLY want to see my family again, so I just won't be a Christian then.
Listening to gospels and sermons had me thinking, and made me come up with lots of burning questions I want to know, when I ask someone, they'll be like "Do Bible study to find out."
Hence, my curiosity leads me to Bible study. Being the curious self that I am, there were lots of things I wanted to know about, that to me wasn't clear. The Christian faith relies on the Bible, because apparently God had sent his Holy Spirit to the prophets to write them in. How do we know that is the case? Is there proof to support that evidence? I once asked "So, where does the Bible come from? When was it written? And who wrote it?" and a Christian, my Bible study teacher said, "They were found in the Dead Sea, that's why they're also called Dead Sea Scrolls. It's proven to be thousands of years old." I personally don't know whether to believe this or not. Another question asked by this curious cat, is that if God loved/loves each and everyone of us equally, why is life not fair? Some people are rich, some people are poor, some people are smart, some stupid, and why is there sufferings and pain and diseases? Why is there war?
Apparently, the answer to that is because of the Satan. But, if God is the greatest, can't he beat Satan?
But it hasn't be answered by my Bible study teacher yet, the one who said that it's because of Satan is this girl, who thinks she's the best Christian and person ever.
I was listening to Michael Jackson, Man In the Mirror, this song touched my heart, it's about making a change, and bringing peace to the world. "If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make a change." This song is about not being a hypocrite, and if you do want to see world peace, then, start by you. As Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." I remember these quotes off by heart, I remember peace quotes and inspirational quotes. So, as I was thinking and deep into making a change, Grace Ho, rudely ripped off the two earphones off my ears harshly. This had just made me angry. She was like "It's Sabbath." and I was like ... so..... what?! grrrrr.
Then every teen went upstairs to help with the little kids, and then this woman suddenly said "There is also a service downstairs with english translation for the older teens." just when I come in. ANd I was like "FRIKK I'M NOT OLD. AND WHY CAN'T I STAY HERE" so I went down. I was planning to stay down, listen to the sermon and listen to what other flaws there are. But then, no one my age was there. SO I went back upstairs. SUch an effort it was, seeing as I have a knee problem, it was hard to go up and down the stairs not as easy as 123 as some people find it, but it turns out I have just wasted my effort, energy and time. I came back in, and the woman said again "Grace, do you want to take your friend downstairs, there is English translation there for the sermon, for the older teens"
in my heart i was angry, "FRIKKKKK WOMANNNN I HAVE JUST BEEN THERE GAAAAARRRRRRRR STUPID CAN'T YOU SEE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE OLDER THAN ME SITTING THERE. WHY DO YOU HATE ME. FRIKKKK!"
just cos i'm tall. there's like this 17yearold who doesn't look 17, because she's short, and she gets to sit there while i, 15 years of age, don't. AASDOIHWIOEHWIO KASDASDJKLH OIEWHF TALK ABOUT DISCRIMINATION TO AVERAGE-HEIGHTED PEOPLE!
so anyway. blah blah. the sermon went on for a long time. It was meant to start at 7:30 and finish at 9. But no, the preacher chose to preach until 9:30. When I got home, it was like 10-ish, and I think everyone is asleep already.
Being an unaccepting injustice kind of person, I decided, I needed to speak out.
Many flaws found in the preachers preachings-
preacher: the bombing in Jakarta, was because of religion.
truth: NOT! IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF RELIGION!
get it right, do your research, even i know.
preacher: michael jackson suicide with drugs.
truth: WRONG! DON'T ASSUME! IT WAS NOT PROVEN, AND HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN YET!
preacher: the buddhists worship this god who died and became a god. (and he also said something about it being the works of the devil.)
truth: WRONG! NEVER HEARD OF IT. DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT OTHER RELIGION! BUDDHISM WAS FOUND WAYYYY LONGGGGGGGGG BEFORE CHRISTIANITY, SO DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT IT!
At the end of the day, I am angry. I can't accept injustice. I can't accept how lots of people can just believe in flaws, mistakes and myths like that. I am considering to not go to church anymore, because it is pretty clear that even the preacher, the pastor, is not holy, and does not know what he is talking about, doing injustice, saying bad things about other religion.
I am confused with religion, at first, I was a Buddhist, because back where I was from, my family used to often go to temples to pray, but as I moved, we started to not go, because it was far from where I live. Then my mother's friend invited her to go to this temple of Taoism near our house, so we went there, we all believed in it, and became a vegetarian. But then something happened, which I will not post publicly, and they kept asking for money. According to them, you can go to heaven with money. I asked them "What if you're evil, like a mafia, but you're rich, can you go to heaven?" "Yes, he can pay off his sins." and i was like WHATTERRRRR SINCE WHENNN ?!?! THAT'S SO NOT FAIR! WHAT IF YOU'RE POOR!?!?
so then, we started not going there anymore.
Then for a while, I became an atheist. I didn't believe in God. Because of the unfairness, and if there was really a God, why does he let some people suffer?
Then Easter Camp this year, the speaker somehow convinced me to believe in Christianity. But now, I'm starting to lose that belief.
Religions- you only believe in them for a little while, and then you start noticing their flaws and inconsistencies, and stop believing.
SO, for the meantime, I think I'll just go with the flow and stick with my family. :)
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