Bourgeois Shangri-La is quite a catchy song.
It makes me feel like dancing to it.
And I don't dance.


holidays ending soon. :(
don't want to go back to school! :(
exams in term 4! :(

anyway, i was just reading people's statuses.
one of them was-
why are they rabbit satays? they're so cute!

i say: well chickens and cows are cute too.



anyway, there's this website i found- it's got lots of shocking and weird facts.
read it.

believe-or-not.blogspot.com

http://believe-or-not.blogspot.com/2009/09/chinese-farmer-grows-baby-shaped-pears.html




and i've mastered nocturne in c# minor since like 2 weeks ago if you're wondering.
don't play much of it these days anymore.

so, there is no law & order uk next week- instead there'll be ncis behind the scenes next week. :(
i want law & order uk! hopefully it will be back the next week.
so i'm bored.
i didn't end up practicing much of nocturne in c#minor today. i'm up to the start of the second page.
and really slow on left hand.
i was going to water my sunflowers but there were poo?
and i haven't read much of night either.
i am currently up to page 22.

i also want to learn the revolutionary etude also by chopin.
listening to it sends chills- you can feel the emotion while he was composing it, as it was composed right after the war. so you can feel all the dramatic emotions, and it's an amazing song- it has lots of emotions listeners can feel and imagine what it was like.

Chopin is amazing.
Is he becoming my favourite composer?
♫♪♬

The Pianist

I just finished watching 'The Pianist' by Roman Polanski, based on the true story of Władysław Szpilman. Władysław Szpilman was a famous Polish musician until he and his family were deported to a Warsaw Ghetto due to the German invasion of Poland. He had a friend who worked for the Nazis, hence when all of his family members were going on the train, his friend pulled him and said to save himself.
"Szpilman never saw any members of his family again. The train they were on took them to Treblinka. None of them survived the war." (from wiki)
[The Pianist is a memoir written by the Polish musician of Jewish origins Władysław Szpilman. He tells how he survived the German deportations of Jews to extermination camps, the 1943 destruction of the Warsaw Ghetto, and the 1944 Warsaw Uprising during World War II. (from wikipedia)]

It's a truly amazing movie, depicting such cruelty us human beings can be, yet we must not be stereotypical as there are bad people and there are good people. It's a sad, touching yet a story of hope, not only a story, but a true record of what had happened- a true story of survival and hope. Could it be that his music was what helped him get through- hence the name of the movie- 'The Pianist'?
Anyhow, it's a truly amazing movie- I now want to read the memoir by Wladyslaw Szpilman. Just reading the words from his book on wikipedia sends me the chills, and my eye teary.
Wladyslaw Szpilman is my hero.

I am now inspired and motivated to finish reading- "NIGHT" by Elie Wiesel, and practice Chopin on the Piano, and try to find the memoir 'The Pianist' by Wladyslaw Szpilman to read for this 3 week holiday. :)
♫

tired

whee there's a cake with a candle next to the B- the blogger symbol thing. is it blogger's birthday? happy birthday blogger!

i am really tired and my legs hurt. :(
hence i have a day of resting at home today.
thank you for understanding father.

these 2 previous days has been quite eventful, not really.
human relations with scotch was such a bore.
not fun.
just awkward.
and weird.
but after that was good cos on the tram i was updated with some juicy gossip!

then the next day, i had to wake up early too, and my legs were sore but i still wanted to go, so i endured the pain and i got on a train, got off at parliament station and climbed those grand steps of the parliament house, boy do i feel important!
the building was magnificent! it had huge pillars, inside and outside, and there was a statue of our majesty the queen, and there were paintings of royalty and premiers- including steve bracks.
and just whoah!

the unya conference itself was interesting as well. first we had a guest speaker called tom- who was/is the young australian of the year. he spoke about having passion, vision and action. passion- something you really love about, vision- what you want to see, what will happen, what is the perfect world you want to see, action- "be the change you want to see in the world"- mahatma gandhi
he didn't really say that quote but he was basically talking about it.
he talked about the rwandan genocide and how he went to visit them. there was this man called peter and this man called james.
james had killed peter's family, yet they were still sitting next to each other and they were neighbours. tom asked peter why, and peter basically said that if the whole of rwanda won't forgive those who killed their family, then how can we make peace? and that's when i remembered mahatma gandhi's quote- "be the change you want to see in the world". peter wanted to see peace and forgiveness, so he was the first one to forgive james- sat next to him, and live next to him.

then we were shown a presentation of the global poverty project.
then it was recess, then we re put into groups of our goals- since there were 8 main goals to improve poverty. and my group was group 2- that was education. we had discussions, then it was lunch time.
we had pizza and we socialised.
then we had another discussion- we were given a scenario of south ossetia wanting to break apart from georgia, what would you do to resolve it.
then we got free smiggle pencil cases if we wanted to sign up for the unya mailing list.
then we had a model un debate.
then we had to leave early for music roundabout.
tiredddddddd!

we, as human beings are often too absorbed by themselves that they do not know what is going on around them.
what we have been learning about in science is comsmology, and we now know that when you look up at a patch of sky- you can only see that it's blue and there are white clouds, so what, but actually there are lots of galaxies, stars, and planets, beyond that, and we can't see it so we don't care about it.
this is what me and the awesome unis was talking about in re, and she said something about being in a fish tank and you don't care.
then after school, on parer street there was this person in front of us in his/her car in the middle of the road, waiting for his/her daughter, in the middle of the road!
not caring about people behind, creating a traffic jam?
people are often too absorbed by themselves.

mr.t: what else is limited? what else are we going to run out of in the future?
me: time.


haha i laugh at myself.

they say cats always sit on mats,
but my cats never sat on the mat,
actually, they did, they used to,
until they found a better place to nap,
that is my lap.

HI ALEX.
nice to know you're following me. :D
do you have a blog? what is it? i shall follow you too. :D

i hate school.
and the cold doesn't help as stated by gemma and lisha.
we've been getting so much work and pressure.
subject forms due friday, maths test thursday.
farrrrrrrrrrrrrk.

i hate my maths teacher.
i hate my science teacher.

PLEASE DON'T LET ME HAVE THEM NEXT YEAR.
PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

i keep on getting headaches recently.
ugh.

i should start studying for my maths test!
i have to!

sigh.

i hate school.


aww alicia, i hope you're feeling better.
at least you've got friends who care for you! :)
we'll always be there for you, alicia!
hug! :)

melba hall was magnificent.
truly amazing.


the last performance was truly brilliant.
she has inspired me to practice my viola everyday. :)

i have a headache.
uggghh.

this week has been shit.
started the week with getting our maths test back.
as usual, i got shit results.
ugghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i don't even care anymore.
i know i'm dumb.
i'm stupid at maths.
and stupid o, she's such a bitch. she still won't fix my report, when she clearly said that it was higher than what she put on my report.
fucking hell i just want to punch her in the face.
grr.

i hate maths.
i have been failing maths all throughout this year, because of fucking o.



i hate school.


and then at choir today, i was sitting next to this girl who sang loud, but always sings out of tune.
and beccy thought it was me.
and she was like "you sing off tune"
i told her it's not me, it's the person next to me!
and she was like "noooo it's you. cos i can hear you. cos you're sitting next to me."
well it's the person next to me, i don't sing off tune, unlike you, thank you very much, bitch.

sigh.
we have another maths test next week.
and i've got my careers interview on monday.
apparently s won't let people do ib if they got a c.
screw her, i'm doing ib.
and i'll be doing standard maths, so i will be fine.
forms due 28th.




i feel like a doormat, i've felt like i've been trampled on people, letting people do whatever they want, say whatever they want to me, and i've let them hurt me. i've lost my sense of confidence, pride, self-esteem and assertiveness. i need to go back to the person i was before. maybe i've been influenced by the people i hang with. cos they're all so self-centred, selfish, bossy and not very nice people.



i now want to be a prosecutor.

the telegraph cables hum.
it's 11 pm soon and i have school tomorrow. :(
today, the weather was melbourne.
cold, wet, windy. bleh.
and the forecast was 21 degrees.
like i can do that.
ewwy science, commerce, maths, english, double p.e.
oh noes, we're getting our tests back tomorrow. i DON'T want my test back. :S
and eww double p.e.
i like history cos we're learning about china- a country i hate.
and mr.p + marrisa were so religious, because it's so china.
ARGH
AND ONE THING I CAN'T GET OVER!
we watched this indo movie over 3 lessons- which has a double entrende meaning- "what's wrong with Cinta" and "what's up with love"
ARGH! the poem ranga writes at the end is soooo sweeeet.
but i hate the ending!
stupid ranga! just leave cinta alone like that.
:(
it's horrible!
c: i love you.
r: i love you too.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to. -hands book- read the last page.
c: don't leave.
r: i have to.

and then he leaves.
ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
but the poem was real sweet though... "what's up with love?" <3



♥

The Last Day On Earth- Kate Miller-Heidke
Look down the ground below is crumbling
Look up the stars are all exploding

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

Between the dust and the debris
There's a light surrounding you and me

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me
In my dreams

And you hold me closer than I can ever remember being held.
I'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

It's the last day on earth
In my dreams
It's the end of the world
And you've come back to me

In my head I replay our conversations
Over and over til they feel like hallucinations
You know me? I love to lose my mind
And every time anybody speaks your name I still feel the same
I ache, I ache, I ache inside.

currently typing at 11:57PM
yawn.
and about to finish apollo justice.
yay long weekend!
today was shit.
so glad it's the weekends.
bleh.
sleep in.
no i'm not coming to church. you just wasted your credit.
i don't care anymore.
i'm back to my original ground zero opinion.
people who go to church are not like what the bible tells them to.

full stop.

i like it when people read my blog and comments, but please don't be a try-hard who thinks you're so famous and popular that everyone knows you. cos i don't, and not even introducing yourself but instead saying something in a foreign language which i do not speak.
just yeah. don't make my week even worse.

this week was shit.

whee.
life sucks.

once in a blue moon

once in a while would you hear me swear.
but WHAT THE FUCK.
TODAY WAS SUCH A SHIT DAY.

GRR.
I FOUND OUT WHY MY "FRIEND" WAS BEING REALLY NICE YESTERDAY. I THOUGHT SHE HAD CHANGED. BUT IT WAS ACTUALLY BECAUSE HER FRIEND WASN'T AT SCHOOL, SO SHE WAS ONLY USING ME TO BE HER "FRIEND".
WHAT THE FUCK.
SHE WAS PISSING ME OFF SO MUCH.
SHE WAS LIKE "OHH I TOLD THEM WHAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY."
THEM BEING PEOPLE I HATE.
AND I WAS LIKE "WHAT THE FUCK HILARY. THAT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU GO AROUND TELLING EVERYONE YOU BITCH."
AND THEN HILARY REPLIES ANNOYINGLY "WELL I WOULDN'T MIND IF THAT WAS ME."
GRR I JUST WANTED TO FULL ON PUNCH HER IN THE FACE.
THE STUPID ANNOYING SUCK UP BITCH.

AND MY STUPID MATHS TEACHER, SHE MADE A FUCKING MISTAKE ON MY REPORT, GIVING ME A D. WHICH I NEVER GOT. AND WON'T FIX IT.
SHE WAS LIKE "I DON'T THINK IT WOULD CHANGE."
AND IT'S LIKE FUCK YOU BITH. JUST FIX MY REPORT.
GRR ANOTHER PERSON I WANT TO PUNCH IN THE FACE.

AND THEN LASTLY, I WAS LOOKING FOR PEACE SO I WENT TO CG.
TO FIND GRACE HO PISSED OFF AT ME AGAIN.
SHE IGNORED ME, HIT ME WITH HER BAG AND STOMPED OUT OF HER ROOM.
APPARENTLY SHE WASN'T PISSED OFF AT ME.
BUT THEN WHY THE FUCK WOULD SHE DO THAT TO ME THEN.
GRR I HATE PEOPLE WHO TAKE OUT THEIR ANGER ON OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE CLUELESS.
AND SHE HURT MY FEELINGS.
SHE JUST MADE MY DAY EVEN WORSE.

TO EVERYONE MENTIONED ABOVE.
THANKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE WORST THAN IT ALREADY IS.

an eventful day

yesterday was pretty good cos there was no maths, and i got to use laptops for 4 periods. :D

today was quite eventful.
before school was string power.
*BORING!
the pieces are soo easy, it's boring.
and as i was walking in, i could hear how bad it sounded- it was like out of tune. and the songs are easy and people can't play properly! i want to move orchestras!

first period was maths, but it wasn't so bad, cos we just got notes for worded simultaneous equations, and she talked to us about maths subjects in year 11 and 12.
second period was history- YAY I SAW KIM! <33
i haven't seen her for 4 days and tomorrow's going to be her last day! :(

third and fourth period was p.e.
it was badminton, so it wasn't that bad, and i played this time. :D
except next week's gonna be aerobics.
eww.
when it wasn't our turn to play, fiona, ellie and i went outside to practice, but it was windy, so we played, or we were supposed to play knockout with a soccer ball. but then ellie hogged the ball and kept going around the court shooting into netball hoops, so fiona had this idea of running leaving ellie behind by herself. i thought that was mean, but ellie didn't want to share, so i went with fiona.

fourth and fifth was english and science.
english was okay. we only listened to people's presentation and perspectives about gilbert grape and the main themes of the movie.
science.
henriques.
what can i say.
we only corrected homework questions for the whole lesson and did this flow chart thing for respiratory and the excretion system.
anyway, she was going around checking if people did their homework.
so i did the sheet but i didn't do the other bit that were questions from the computer.
so i quickly did it in class and she was like "where are the questions?" and i'm like, "i didn't write it." and she replied, "did you just scribble this quickly in class?" and i said "no, i did it before." and she pointed out "but this answer- this is what i said." and i insisted, "yeah, but i knew it before you said it." and she, being the annoying -insert word here- that she is, she said "yeah you did it in class", i replied "no." and continuously she said "yeah." and i'm like "no".
and as she was a few steps away, i said to miranda, who was sitting next to me, "oh my gosh, she thinks i did it in class." loudly so that she could hear.
and miranda didn't do her homework either, she only wrote the answers as we were going through them, and henriques was like "no this is not good, you have to write questions and answer." and miranda was like whatever.
but then as she went to check people's homework in the next row behind us, i said to miranda loudly, with an intention so that henriques can hear- "hey you know if you write the questions and answers on a separate piece of paper- it's wasting paper."
m: yeah i know, it's so stupid.
i: yeah, and they're teaching us to recycle- look our next project is recycling. she's such a hypocrite.
m: i know it's so bad. ohhh.
i: yeah i know, and then you know if you waste paper, you waste trees, and we need trees for oxygen- to breathe, and we're learning about the respiratory system.
m: yeah we're learning about it. it's so bad.
i: yeah and then if you write more- you use more sweat- using the excretory system. so you waste sweat and paper.
m: oh my gosh, i know.
i: yeah we need trees to breathe! if she makes us write questions and answers on another piece of paper, she's making us waste trees, and without trees, we won't be able to breathe, cos we need oxygen from trees, and then we die!
m: i know! this is sooo bad! it's so stupid!
and then not long after that i heard henriques said the same thing to eunice- that you need to write questions and answers on another piece of paper. then i heard henriques was like "no, it's not wasting paper." eunice must've complained that it's wasting paper. and henriques was like "no, blah blah" with like no actual answer/reason, she just went on about random things.
soon after that- the bell went. miranda said- "ohhhh it's so stupid!" i replied, "what's stupid?" and miranda said, "the teacher!" - i agreed, i said, "i know! what is this!? global warming!? i'm gonna talk to mr.carbo (this science teacher who's all about being green)".
miranda: are you really going to complain?
i: yeah, it's called justice. i'm going to stand up to what is right.

and then we all went home.
alicia came with me in my car to k-mart, to get stuff for kim, cos tomorrow's her last day. :(
we got her stuff from the $2 shop first- we got this pink bag, cos kim's favourite colour's pink, which says 'Australia' and has a picture of a koala, then, we got her a coin bank thing, a really big badge/pin that says "proud australian", a notebook and pen, 2 australian magnets, and chocolate for the farewell party tomorrow. that all costed us $12. and then we went to coles- we were originally going to get her tim-tams and doritos but then we saw this huge packet of lollipops for $1.00 and it was 1kg. so we put back all the other things and got it instead. and i got myself portwine aeroplane jelly. yum! :p
so all together was $13. but i paid for the lollipops. so now i owe alicia $5.55.
and then alicia went to the tram stop, and i walked home.



OHH AND THEN I CHECKED MY EMAIL, AND THERE WAS THIS EMAIL FROM NINENEWS- OH MY GOSH!

A woman charged with murdering her three-and-a-half-week-old son used a knife and two swords to dismember the child and ate parts of his body, including his brain, before stabbing herself in the torso and slicing her own throat, police say.

read the full story here http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/842505/woman-accused-of-baby-murder-ate-brain?cmp=nl_news_28july2009_6&mch=newsletter

hi thur.
new layout. :D
i've been changing layouts recently, cos i haven't been satisfied.
now, i'll stick to basic. :)
argh!
weekends ending soon!
oh noes! :(
monday- school tomorrow. :(
lots of homework due next week.
all on tuesday.
geography essay, english scene analysis, science kidney dissection sheet, and catching up on maths.
and guess what, i haven't started any of them!
i so can't be bothered doing homework.
grr i hate homework. :(
i need motivation.
it's cold.
and i'm lazy.

I am bored.
I feel like talking.
I guess I'm on high.
hmm.
okay- highlight of the dayyyy.....
was probably, how at around 9ish i felt like shin ramyun.
and then not long after that, at like 9:30ish my dad was eating korean noodles.
and i didn't tell him i wanted to cook shin ram yun, i was originally going to make them at like 10ish, but then he was eating them before i got out of the study.
and i was like "whoa."
and my dad gave me some noodles.
yum. :D

secondd, i found out why grace ho was rude, ignorant, selfish, and looked like she was pssed off with me. the truth is, it's not me. it's someone else. but still, i hate people who take out anger on other people. but then i know that she's not that bad. erhm.

but bad thing- i was sitting next to this old man, and he won't frikin move- he took up all my seat space! like he bent his hand, and it kept hitting me!
argh! frikk! annoying! arghhhh!

finally, today was the last day of the evangelism, so next week's gonna be cg.
hummmmm.
i was thinking that if we ended up splitting, i won't go to cg anymore.. but i don't know.
we're not splitting yet.
and i have to play the viola.
so yeah.

oh and my friend's love life isn't going so well. like they were together last year, and then they broke up, and then they got back again, and then apparently her parents found out and made her broke up with him again. but she's only 14, and he just turned 15. like wtf, you guys, who cares about love life anyway. you've got other things you need to prioritise before love and relationships. at 15 years of age, we don't even know the meaning of 'love'.
so who cares, but i was just being nice and i said that she shouldn't worry cos i love her. :)

i've got so much homework due next week!
argh!
but i'm so lazy lah. :o

Religion

What I really hate about religion is when people insult other religions, they think only their religion is the right way, and all the other religions are "bad" and "the works of the devil." I went to church because they promised this great thing that you will find peace and happiness because God is always with you, and you have to be a Christian to go to heaven, because that was what the Bible said. So, I had people who I really loved, pass away, they weren't Christians, but I truly believed that they went to heaven, and I kept telling myself that someday I will see them again, and my whole family, the 5 of us, will live happily ever after eternally, forever in Heaven.

Talking about harsh, ignorant, non-empathic, not caring about others, Christians, or particularly Seventh-Day Adventists, believe that you don't go to heaven when you die. You wait until Christ's second coming, and those with Christ will rise first, so apparently when you die, you sleep until Christ's second coming, and then if you're a Christian, you'll go to heaven, and if you're not... then... you won't?

You see, I really want to see my family again, and the people who I loved who had passed away, weren't Christians, so if I'm a Christian, apparently I'll go to a different place than them, resulting in, I'll never see them. :( The thought makes me really sad. :( And I REALLY want to see my family again, so I just won't be a Christian then.

Listening to gospels and sermons had me thinking, and made me come up with lots of burning questions I want to know, when I ask someone, they'll be like "Do Bible study to find out."
Hence, my curiosity leads me to Bible study. Being the curious self that I am, there were lots of things I wanted to know about, that to me wasn't clear. The Christian faith relies on the Bible, because apparently God had sent his Holy Spirit to the prophets to write them in. How do we know that is the case? Is there proof to support that evidence? I once asked "So, where does the Bible come from? When was it written? And who wrote it?" and a Christian, my Bible study teacher said, "They were found in the Dead Sea, that's why they're also called Dead Sea Scrolls. It's proven to be thousands of years old." I personally don't know whether to believe this or not. Another question asked by this curious cat, is that if God loved/loves each and everyone of us equally, why is life not fair? Some people are rich, some people are poor, some people are smart, some stupid, and why is there sufferings and pain and diseases? Why is there war?

Apparently, the answer to that is because of the Satan. But, if God is the greatest, can't he beat Satan?
But it hasn't be answered by my Bible study teacher yet, the one who said that it's because of Satan is this girl, who thinks she's the best Christian and person ever.

I was listening to Michael Jackson, Man In the Mirror, this song touched my heart, it's about making a change, and bringing peace to the world. "If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself, and make a change." This song is about not being a hypocrite, and if you do want to see world peace, then, start by you. As Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." I remember these quotes off by heart, I remember peace quotes and inspirational quotes. So, as I was thinking and deep into making a change, Grace Ho, rudely ripped off the two earphones off my ears harshly. This had just made me angry. She was like "It's Sabbath." and I was like ... so..... what?! grrrrr.

Then every teen went upstairs to help with the little kids, and then this woman suddenly said "There is also a service downstairs with english translation for the older teens." just when I come in. ANd I was like "FRIKK I'M NOT OLD. AND WHY CAN'T I STAY HERE" so I went down. I was planning to stay down, listen to the sermon and listen to what other flaws there are. But then, no one my age was there. SO I went back upstairs. SUch an effort it was, seeing as I have a knee problem, it was hard to go up and down the stairs not as easy as 123 as some people find it, but it turns out I have just wasted my effort, energy and time. I came back in, and the woman said again "Grace, do you want to take your friend downstairs, there is English translation there for the sermon, for the older teens"
in my heart i was angry, "FRIKKKKK WOMANNNN I HAVE JUST BEEN THERE GAAAAARRRRRRRR STUPID CAN'T YOU SEE OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE OLDER THAN ME SITTING THERE. WHY DO YOU HATE ME. FRIKKKK!"
just cos i'm tall. there's like this 17yearold who doesn't look 17, because she's short, and she gets to sit there while i, 15 years of age, don't. AASDOIHWIOEHWIO KASDASDJKLH OIEWHF TALK ABOUT DISCRIMINATION TO AVERAGE-HEIGHTED PEOPLE!

so anyway. blah blah. the sermon went on for a long time. It was meant to start at 7:30 and finish at 9. But no, the preacher chose to preach until 9:30. When I got home, it was like 10-ish, and I think everyone is asleep already.

Being an unaccepting injustice kind of person, I decided, I needed to speak out.

Many flaws found in the preachers preachings-

preacher: the bombing in Jakarta, was because of religion.
truth: NOT! IT WAS NOT BECAUSE OF RELIGION!
get it right, do your research, even i know.

preacher: michael jackson suicide with drugs.
truth: WRONG! DON'T ASSUME! IT WAS NOT PROVEN, AND HAS NOT BEEN PROVEN YET!

preacher: the buddhists worship this god who died and became a god. (and he also said something about it being the works of the devil.)
truth: WRONG! NEVER HEARD OF IT. DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT OTHER RELIGION! BUDDHISM WAS FOUND WAYYYY LONGGGGGGGGG BEFORE CHRISTIANITY, SO DON'T SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT IT!


At the end of the day, I am angry. I can't accept injustice. I can't accept how lots of people can just believe in flaws, mistakes and myths like that. I am considering to not go to church anymore, because it is pretty clear that even the preacher, the pastor, is not holy, and does not know what he is talking about, doing injustice, saying bad things about other religion.

I am confused with religion, at first, I was a Buddhist, because back where I was from, my family used to often go to temples to pray, but as I moved, we started to not go, because it was far from where I live. Then my mother's friend invited her to go to this temple of Taoism near our house, so we went there, we all believed in it, and became a vegetarian. But then something happened, which I will not post publicly, and they kept asking for money. According to them, you can go to heaven with money. I asked them "What if you're evil, like a mafia, but you're rich, can you go to heaven?" "Yes, he can pay off his sins." and i was like WHATTERRRRR SINCE WHENNN ?!?! THAT'S SO NOT FAIR! WHAT IF YOU'RE POOR!?!?
so then, we started not going there anymore.

Then for a while, I became an atheist. I didn't believe in God. Because of the unfairness, and if there was really a God, why does he let some people suffer?

Then Easter Camp this year, the speaker somehow convinced me to believe in Christianity. But now, I'm starting to lose that belief.

Religions- you only believe in them for a little while, and then you start noticing their flaws and inconsistencies, and stop believing.




SO, for the meantime, I think I'll just go with the flow and stick with my family. :)

hahaha i love alicia.
she made my day.

"mr.thomas, what time did you sleep last night?"
*everyone looking at lisha weirdly*
"what time did you sleep last night mr. thomas, you spelt mustang, mustard."
*whole class breaks into laughter*
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay you may be reading this and be like "....WT..?!"
but it's one of those moments where you had to be there to get it and laugh.

i'd lie

i can relate to this song. freakishly.

I'd Lie by Taylor Swift
I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs and

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

i'd lie

I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes

He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs and

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you

He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle

Yes, I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

there is like plenty of space in my wardrobe!
my dad and stepmum chucked out all of my clothes into the garage.
without permission from me.
and now i can't find clothes i want to wear, and ugh.
there's this white shirt i like.
i've only started wearing it recently cos i only found it, it still even had the price tag on it.
i really like it.
it fits me perfectly, and it's quite cultural and traditional, which i like.
it's got a picture of these girls playing with paper boats, and it's got the writing "perahu kertas"
it defines where i'm from and it remids me of childhood.
but my dad and stepmum packed it up with other stacks of clothes into 5 boxes.
and they're all stacked up with a height i can't reach.
and my stepmum won't help me find it.
so now here i am typing with the heater on, listening to stranger in moscow eating icecream, trying to cheer myself up.

this morning was pretty good though, although i actually needed to go to orchestra practice, cos i had to play viola for church, and i didn't know most of the songs and stuffed up, but fortunately all the others knew it, so i was covered and saved. i was planning to go home after church, but then jesslyn had to stay, so i stayed with her. if i had gotten home earlier, i probably would've been bored at home, so i guess it was good that i stayed for the evangelism. at sabbath school i also met these twins, they were pretty cool, i don't know their names though, apparently they come to the church once in a while, so i may not see them again for a long time.. :(

also there was this verse which really touched my heart (Matthew 25:40)- 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'
so, you have to treat other people like how you would treat God.

another thing that touched my heart, was this video that was shown, it was about the Hoyt family, a father and a son in a marathon. The son suffers from cerebral palsy, yet the father still strived finishing the marathon.
please watch this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKuHTz6i_YY

it shows how much a father's love is for his children.
at school, at chapel, they were also talking about fathers. and i now know how much my father loves me.

yay it's finally the weekend! :D

i have to wake up early on saturday and sunday though.
sigh.
oh well, at least, a little later than school days.

i am bored.
it is now 11:12pm

oh i just realised, this new blog layout has no space for a comment box thing.
hmm.
hold on i'll fix that in a second.
i want ice cream.
and it's the middle of winter.
i guess that's alright though.
it's better than our english teacher, just because he's from scotland, he finds winter here warm. he turned the fans on, and it's in the middle of winter.
...
freezeness.

but then i want to go to europe at winter so i can see snowing! not snow- i've seen snow, but i want to actually see the snow falling from the sky- snowing!

_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~_~





i take a step back and look at the world around me.
what do i see?

i love kim
from germany.

two more weeks though! and she has to go back! :(

yay friday tomorrow!

homework-
study maths and science.

7 more hours of school!
yayy!!

45 school days left till the holidays!
yay!

hummmmm
can't wait till the weekends!
but then i can't sleep in these holidays. :(

i want holidays!

i'm bored. :(
i'll write a random story later.

hi thur,
i can't sleep.
i am currently having dessert at 10 pm.
yum
i am sick.
i am not feeling well.
i'm just so tired of people.
teachers, friends in indo.
grr.
i still love my friends here though.
there's this exchange student from germany.
she's awesome. :D
still 8 weeks and 2 days left of school. :(
i want holidays!

dedicated to elsa, the froyo addict

Once upon a time, in a kingdom far far away, there lived a girl, by the name of Elsa.
Elsa is also known among the villagers as the Froyo addict, because of her obsession with frozen yogurt. She has tried all brands of frozen yogurt, although she loves them all, she keeps searching for a perfect one that's just right for her.
Elsa has tried Lite n Sassy, J.Cool, Heavenly Blush, and much much more, but is still not satisfied.

One sunny day, Elsa accidentally bumped across Sally, the rich girl whose favourite colour's green.
Sally is a unique kind of girl. She's rich, and she likes to wear stripy black clothes.
She's also known for her eccentric yet radical ponytails.
Sally's rich yet kind, she gave Elsa a sample of the frozen yogurt that Sally had just made.

First try and Elsa had fallen in love with Sally's frozen yogurt.
Elsa just can't get enough of it! She's addicted!
However, Sour Sally is expensive, hence Elsa wants to try and make frozen yogurt of her own!
Do you have any easy to make recipes?
Please send it to her! (click)

someone take my nds from me please.
it's eating my life away.
:(
i've been sleep deprived thanks to my ds.
grr!

gardening mama
haha.

i am no longer obsessed with phoenix wright..
sigh
i have to get new games.

my dad just got a new fax machine.
you can play sudoku on it!
whee! fun! fun! :D

lovelies, danke for reading my blog.
i don't want school. :(
holidays are ending soon. :(
argh!
boom
i need new songs
there are no good new songs atm!

although it's quite old, a song i like atm is 'Stranger in Moscow'
listen to it! :)

the song doesn't suit the layout.
i'll change it l8r k.

update:
i'm still obsessed with that hot celeb guy. :D

so the cure to my sickness was having a social life.
an outing + dinner to the mall with friends was all, and to top it off, meeting a hot celeb accidentally!
and standing in the same lift!

aww i'm going back tomorrow. :(
when i was sick, i was bored as so i wanted to go back quickly, but now, school starts soon. :(
i don't want to go! :(

sour sally! ;D

it ain't fog.
it ain't mist.
it's pollution.
what country am i in?
where else?
it's hot.
it's humid.
argh.

hi ozs. :D
miss you guys!
how's work experience?
i'm doing mine when i come back.
exams were actually not bad. :D
except my maths teacher wasn't happy because i got a b and an a.
is that really bad?
:(

nonetheless,
it's the holidays. :)

and i've finished phoenix wright.
i want apollo justice:ace attorney! :D

yes now.
have a great holiday guys!
tell me about work experience and your exams in the comment box. :D

see you soon!

EXAMS! STRESS! STRESS! STRESS!

YES I AM STRESSING.
BUT WHY AM I POSTING THIS THEN WHEN I SHOULD BE STUDYING?
ARGH!
damn distractions, laziness, tiredness, damn procrastination!

you have to admit, i am proest at procrastinating.
seriously.
bleh.

okay, i'm cool with history and english and geography.
maths is okay. i'll do past papers... i did one yesterday.. i'll do other ones tomorrow. :)
science i really need help with.

i know no one reads this anyway, so whatever i'm talking to my self alright.

hey you know whenever you see amazing realistic clear wonderful photos, you stare in amazement and ponder at the amazing photographic talent the photographer must have, well, guess what, real life is even better.

look at nature.
the flowers, they are so much better in real life than in photos.

:(

I feel really bad, like suffocating.
Everytime I see a religious person talk about God, Jesus and preach about them, and what is life, I always go against them.
I always ask "then why did he let us suffer?" "what is life" and "life is unfair."
But now, I've really listened deeply and went through it over my head carefully.
10-13 April 2009- Melbourne Asian Seventh Day Adventist Church Youth Camp.
For the first night, 10 April, I couldn't sleep, I had a nightmare about how my dad and stepmother doesn't care about me. Even my dad abandoned me, for that stepmother I loathe with a burning passion.
11,12,13- William Moala preached to us about how one day a new city will come, and that day, all families will be reunited again- so I can see my mother and brother again, and we will all live eternally peacefully and happily in heaven. I was listening to what he was preaching, and sigh, my heart hurts, I really truly miss my mother and brother so much. I really miss those childhood days where we were all one family, living happily...
Usually I always question "God if there is one"- "Why do you let there to be diseases and sicknesses and people suffering?"
Whenever people ask me to come along to church, I always have an argument against what they are preaching.
But this one, man, I really felt it, I've opened my heart and accepted God to be in my life, because he knows what's best.
William said that people always have lots of questions about God, and always ask questions such as "What is the purpose and meaning of life", and to be able to understand, we have to open our hearts, and let God communicate with us.
God is always there watching over us, even though we don't realise it.
I remember when my mother passed away, my brother told me to read a poem called "Footprints", when I heard that God loves everyone of us and is always there for us, I remembered what Albert, my brother who passed away told me to read.

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

That opened my heart again, I can feel the goosebumps on my arms, and the heart hurting, I've always not accepted God, but He's always there for me, looking down, protecting us all from evil, and He loves us all very much. I feel really bad, but yet again happy, to know that God is always there and He loves us and cares for us.
I've always thought when my father and stepmother are together, and people are mad at me, that no one cares about me, that no one understands how I feel.. But now I really know that God is always there. God never sleeps. God is great.

Thank you Lord.

However, I'm not ready yet to be baptised, I want to study the bible. Read it thoroughly and understand it really well.

When I got back from camp, I got dropped off by Jesslyn, I wanted to let them in, but the frikin plastic bimbo stepmother that I hate so much was there home alone making frikin dumplings.
Ew. I really hate her!

I feel like screaming at her.

She's so stupid.
She can't make/cook anything apart from dumplings, she can't speak English or Indo, she can't understand other people's feelings, she can't be nice to me, etc, etc.

Ugh, I hate her so much!

No, I don't want you to pretend to care for me.
I understand that nightmare I had the other night, I understand that you will influence my dad to not care about me. One day, my dad will abandon me, because you've influenced him to not care about me.
No, I don't want you in my life.

I've always not accepted God, and I've realised I made a mistake, and regretted it.
But no, not this time, I don't want my stepmother in my life.
I don't want to be in the same house as her.
She can't do anything.
She hates me.
I hate her.
Can I move out, please?
I'd rather leave my dad and stepmother, than me being left behind, abandoned.
It's alright. I know I can cope. I know that my mother and brother are there. I know that God is always there for me.
I know I can live without my dad and stepmother.
So, please, just leave me alone, stepmother.

Right, so I have this Bart Simpson t-shirt, where, inappropriately shows his bum.
I thought it would be inappropriate to wear it to the supermarket, so I put on a Polo jumper over it.
It was frikin 24 degrees celsius, and I was like melting, but I still had to endure.
Fortunately, there were lots of old people shopping at that moment- I really wondered why. I looked around and many many elderly were shopping. Was it because today is Thursday, and is the supermarket closed on Easter? Hmm...
So, at least I didn't catch their attention to be the girl with the rude and inappropriate t-shirt.

But, I saw 2 of my primary school friends, as in, friends from primary school.
They now probably think I'm a weirdo, wearing a jumper in 24 degrees, if they still remember me.

Steven.
Jock.
Player.
My best friend in primary school had a crush on him. (No longer best friends- lost contact.)
My other best friend in primary school went out with him. (No longer best friends- lost contact.)
Lots of other girls went out with him afterwards.
Used to be my best friend. Notice the word, USED.
He turned weird all of a sudden and became a player.

Ashlee.
She was the cash register that served me...

Steven, with his mother and sister were served by the cash register next to Ashlee's.


And the song "Eh Eh" started coming on.
...

Awkward..

muziiek.tumblr.com


Montague.
I just love that name.
No, I do not like romeo, or Juliet, for that matter.
Romeo and Juliet are so stupid to like kill themselves just because they love each other.
We finished watching Zeffirelli's Romeo and Juliet the other day, and our teacher was like, "Which scene do you like the best?"
And I'm like- I like the end, because it shows that the feud between the Capulets and Montagues is over.
He replied- "But, what about where Romeo and Juliet are dead?"
I said, "Yup, I like that bit too. They're so stupid sacrificing their lives just for love."
He insisted- "It's tragic. Tragic."
And I was like.. "Umm.. yes.. okay.."


Oh, and I'm so glad I was away when Shaina disturbed the moment for our english teacher.


I love the song 'Love Story' and Taylor Swift at all, but, umm, the song's like not about the story that Shakespeare wrote...




Alex has these shiny green granny smith apples polished with wax. She loves them because she likes eating wax, and I like them too, because they have 'Montague' stickers.
I stuck one on my jumper, but it seemed to have disappeared nowadays, and I stuck another one on my diary. Montague, is now officially my middle name. :)
IMCH.
methinks i shall just keep it to ich.



17 AGAIN.
I just saw the ad. I REALLLLLLYYYYYYYYY want to see it.
At first, I just wanted to see it, cos Zac Efron's in it, but now, I know the storyline and all, I REALLYYYYYYY want to see it.
I HAVE to see it before Shaina leaves.


Alicia, if you read this, and please do, sorry I forgot your plane letter!
Post 'lymp' if you read this please. lol. thanks.
Oh, and I commented on your blog thing about your best friend, right.. Call me.
It's quite disturbing, as disturbing as that movie we watched in PD.
lol how funny was Shaina when the bell rang at the end of RE lesson, she jumped up and raised both of her arms into the air and shouted "YAYYYYYY!!!!!" like really loudly that Mr.Green heard, and he was like "What do you have next?" and she was like "...Yay.. Personal Development..."
LOL
ANYWAY, ALICIA, I KNOW YOU'RE HAVING A GREAT HOLIDAY AND ALL. BUT CALL ME.

Thank you so much Eunice, and Aunty Wong! :)
Your help is really greatly appreciated! :)

The moon was really big today, except it wasn't full, it was more like half, but still, nonetheless bright.

I got an asian man mobilephone keychain thing from pass the parcel. :)
thanks beccy.

first off i killed my legs from walking to the bus stop then getting off, then standing waiting for the other bus, then getting off and then walking up a massive hill to beccy's house. it started spitting at first when i was walking towards beccy's house, but then as soon as i came in, it started pouring. i arrived at beccy's front door, 4 pm sharp. :D
then after doodling here and there, the sun started rising. that was like about 4:30 ish.

we went crazy on sing it, and guitar hero.
then ate pizza, played pass the parcel.
and then watched disaster movie.
LOL AND EW.

then we had ice cream cake, and watch jenni and beccy battle on guitar hero.
and then the clock strucked 10, and everyone started leaving one by one, including me and eunice.

thank you once again eunice, and eunice's mum!
thank you! thank you! thank you so much! :D

bleh. i hate the weather.
please please please let it become sunny.
so i can go to beccy's party!
please sun.

ugh i have a headache.

i've contributed to beccy's present, it's with jenni.
but i want to be there to present it to her!

ughhhhhhh.

Sorry Eunice, I haven't posted in a while.
I shall write about yesterday and today.
Photograph credits to Eunice. :)
We (Eunice, Clare, Me, LaiKwan, Beccy, Andrea and Kim) went to the Glen to go to Max Brenners (cos Kim has never been) and walk around and stuff.
I had to take public transport so I was at the Glen at like 9:20.
And I had to wait for like 40 minutes for the others to come.
First off was the pet shop.
There were these really cute kittens that were licking/bathing each other and they were like hugging each other (they had their paws on the necks of each other)- they were black and white- we called them ying and yang.



As you see this photo, you would instantly go "Aww! They're so cute!"
I know right.

And so then we went to Max Brenners




I had WHITE hot chocolate, while Clare and Kim got Dark and Laikwan got Milk.
Cos, oh, I'm just so healthy.



Eunice, Andrea and Beccy got Waffles.
May I exaggerate, EXPENSIVE waffles.
Eunice ate 1 plate, that is the above portion shown above, all by herself, while Andee and Beccy shared.

Next was walking around, Cotton On, Just Jeans, etc.
We went to Sportsgirl, and the shopkeeper was like "Oh, I really like your bag! I was like 'what is that?, oh it's a bag!' Where did you get it from?" and I said overseas. It seemed like she really liked it. :p
I got it from my brother's girlfriend, for my birthday. :)
And Eunice took a photo of me wearing my bag, while I didn't even notice!


Kim was trying out hats (she's really a hat person) and according to Eunice, Laikwan was bored, so she started platting a scarf.


I found really awesome gladiators! They were 2 for $25 but no one wanted to buy them, and they were $20 each. So yeah. :(

Clare shall be called 'Rubix' because she can solve a Rubix Cube. No matter how you like complicate the Rubix cube, she can solve it, just cos she's "asian" and she's good at maths. :)


lol at eunice's conversation with the chinese person asking for directions. :)

Well, Eunice, this was probably like similar to your post.. :S

Andddddd today was soooooo tiring, cuz we just got back from the long weekend, and i had to wake up early for string power, and run to catch the tram, and we finished romeo and juliet. :(

Yawnnnnnn.

♫♪

The earthquake last night at around 9, was just a warning, to me, that things are gonna get bad..

english is officially my favourite subject. :D
it's fun and hilarious.

although i'm quite sad that my favourite english teacher, miss exell forgot who i was. she thought i was 'christian' or something. lolll.

romeo is away in mantua and does not speak untill act 5. how sad.

but, it's FRIDAYYY TODAYYYYYYYYY
long weekendddddd.. although monday would be fun cuz there's no maths and there's english!
but whatever, there's english on tuesday as well, and we might get our maths test results back.
i hope i get a good mark!


wheee.
yes. eunice, i believe it is autumn already.
haven't you notice the changes to the weather?

♫♪

uh oh.
am i missing something?
did i miss something?
i hope i get good results/marks on the maths test.
i found it pretty okay, but everyone else said it was hard.
i hope i didn't do anything wrong. :)

whee.
today was boring, except maths.

ugh church studies and pd, and health.

well licia now that i know you read my blog, you should read and comment about this. :)
and if you read this post "cupcake" on the shoutmix. :D

yay now i have nothing to worry about. :)
except it's getting cold.

lol. yes ppl, i totally OWN the romeo part for reading romeo and juliet in class. :p lol.

lol at someone who said they couldn't come hang with us on monday "because i want to go somewhere with my friends" meaning we're not your friends. lyk ttly. tyvm.

whee , we have history and english tomorrow.
FUN!!
and i'm not being sarcastic. :)

it's autumn now, and you can already feel the chill.
meaning sunflowers are no longer in season, and i'll have to wait another year for my sunflowers to grow and bloom again..

kicked off the day with string power.

english- entertainment from hilary and alex rapping and our english teacher with those hand gestures rappers usually do. lol.

history- i thought the history essay was meant to be an ESSAY, hence, it's not meant to be personal, and what you think. but i know someone who got 20/20 who wrote her 'essay' about her view on the american revolution and how it started.
lame.
full stop.
not saying any names.
don't comment.

JANE WHY ARE YOU CHANGING ELECTIVESS!!!!!!!!!!!

and i had to wait until 4, until everyone, including the teachers had all gone home, and i was left there alone in the carpark, with the roaring winds.

Yes, that's right. You did not read wrong. The winds were roaring. Actually it is still roaring as I type this.

Okay, I've memorised all measurement formulas. Now all I need to do is go through all the reviews and analysis questions.
I've studied but I've procrastinated alot and I feel really bad.
But, I've still got 2 days. So hopefully I'll do fine in the test. :)

I keep on thinking to myself that I've got a lot to write in my blog. But now, I've forgotten what I was gonna say.

*sigh*

If putting the thread into the needle had a competition, I would win.
I can put it straight in, before you can say supercalafragilisticespialadocious. :)

Pluot is a Plum x Apricot hybrid.

What is music?
I know lots of people who are good at music. But I don't think they've really think hard into the meaning of music.
As, to me, music has different meanings. Every song has a different meaning. Songs tell stories.
Music sounds good to the ears, and that does not include bands such as FOB, MCR, PATD, AR,, etc, etc. - TYVM.
I hate "music" with; screaming, unprofessional voice techniques, and no meaning.

According to dictionary.com
Music is a noun that means;

1.	an art of sound in time that expresses ideas and emotions in significant forms through the elements of rhythm, melody, harmony, and color.

2.	the tones or sounds employed, occurring in single line (melody) or multiple lines (harmony), and sounded or to be sounded by one or more voices or instruments, or both.

To me, music has to be heart warming and it calms the soul.

Sweet, Calming, Meaningful, Paints a picture-tells a story, and Inspirational.
That's what music is to me.


♫♪

i am tiredddddd, but had a pretty great day.
i now know what it's like to be healthy.
there are so many sport opportunities you can do when you're healthy.
but, my knee will probably start hurting again tomorrow.

first of all, i had to tram this morning, so i had to walk about 1km to the tram stop, and i saw the tram coming, so i ran. i was waiting for the red lights, and the trams was there. the frikin tram won't wait for me. grr. people like that get on my nerves.
so i had to wait like 10 minutes.
then i had to walk up the hill and stairs to form assembly.
i was pretty okay after that.

last 2 periods was p.e.
first, the warm up was a block run.
then it was like whatever fitness activities we came up with for 20 minutes. we did hoola hooping, skipping rope, and running ladder.

then we had a beep test. full stop. just pure tiredness. sorry laikwan, for letting you down. :(

then we had a game of rounders, with no rules, which was fun, and also tiring, but a great way to end the day.
yay for batting and fielding. our team owned the other team, like totally, by like 20 homeruns.
woot. :)

but i was really tired after that. i ran out of water.
as soon as i got home, i wanted to sleep, but my dad made me study maths.

then i walked to coles- about 1km.

and now my legs are killing me.
my dad said that's why i shouldn't do sport. :(
but i had fun! :D

Okay Viola in 4 minutes.
I gotta type real fast.

I made a tumblr btw. it's muziiek.tumblr.com
check it.

Tumblr's really hard to navigate. So, I prefer to write things with Blogspot. :)

K, so after viola, I gotta study maths. Memorise all measurement Surface Area, Area, Volume Formulas!

Today, my dad bought me a stalk of sunflower. I love it.
Even though it's only one stalk. It's fun, and really fascinating to observe and learn.
The sunflower had lots of seeds, apparrently you can eat them.
No wait, isn't that what that asian cartoon, Hamtaro eats? Sunflower Seeds? :p

I currently like the song "So You Can Cry" by Neyo. And "Halo" by Beyonce.
:)

It's a scary thing to think that teachers these days are so 'hip'.
They are so into new technological social sites such as facebook, and they'll know what you're talking about to your friends about facebook and myspace.

I had this freaky stalkish computer nerd teacher when I was in Indonesia. And he tried to add me on Facebook, and I was like "EWwwwww!! Ignore. Block! Block! EWWWwww!!"

and eww i think my comp has this virus, or someone keeps on copying these vietnamese thing. that everytime i want to copy paste something, it always pastes as like vietnamese.
it's really disturbing!!


Anyway.

I'm so looking forward to debating.
But, so not to the maths test on Thursday.
I have to study..

Oh, and after I finished posting yesterday afternoon, it was like about 6:30 after facebook and stuff. And I went to sleep. And didn't wake up until like 9:30 this morning.
Wheeee. 15 hours of sleeeeeeeeepppp. :)



(this is another flower, planted and growed by me, from seeds. however i do not know the name of this flower. and photographed by me. no stealing.)

Earth laughs in flowers. ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

♫♪

I am celebrating the fact that it's Friday. But, I'm so not looking forward to next week, because I have a maths test, and my dad's going overseas.

I have to revise Pythag, Surds (division) and Measurement (formulas).

No Viola for today- cuz it's Friday. Yay! But I have that Viola song by Kinsley stuck in my head.

I'm currently learning how to be fit. I've walked around and swam for 30 minutes today.
But, the problem is, I eat a lot.
:(

But nonetheless, I still love Portwine Aeroplane Jelly.

I'm gonna eat Salad for dinner tonight.


Church Studies is trying to convince everyone to be Christian and to believe that the world is perfect. I'm gonna get a bad mark for that assignment, because I disagreed with what people said how perfect the world is. Oh well, I don't care.
I respect other people's beliefs and opinions, hence they should respect mine too.
Even though, it is a Christian School, they cannot really force us.

When can we start reading Romeo and Juliet again?
I'd probably get a bad mark about that English writing task where we had to write about "My Place", because people's imagination don't go so vividly as mine does, and I described my place too imaginative.



Hey you know what's the best thing to do on a Friday afternoon?

SLEEP!


(this is a sunflower that i grew myself, i know it's still tiny. but i love it. :) )


"Keep your face to the sunshine
and you cannot see the shadow.
It's what sunflowers do."
~ Helen Keller

since no one cares about me.
i might as well put my blog private, or delete it.
how sad.
life is really sad for me.
no one understands, and those who knows what i've been through, just doesn't care.
it's really sad. but all i can do is cry.
at school, i just seem like a happy and cheerful person, but relaly inside me, that's not what it is.
i'm just putting a mask, so people don't know who i really am.
but if i don't pretend to be happy, then i'll be depressed and unsocial.
but when i am around people, i pretend to talk alot and be hyper and like i have a really great life.. but really i am lying.
I am lying to the people around me, and I'm lying to myself.
No one understands.
It's just really hard to speak out if no one understands.
Life is really sad.. for me.

People say how perfect the world is, but it really is imperfect, for me.
Nothing in this world is perfect.
Although, there is an exception- as there are unfairness in this world, hence there are many people whose lives are perfect.

I'm still searching for that talent, that I've got, that nobody else does, a talent that I can excel in and become the very best of it, in the world.
I've been passionate about debating, but lots of other people seem to be better at it than I am.
I know, of that saying climbing a mountain starts with one step.
but it's really hard.

i am becoming a photography enthusiast.
photos coming real soon.

yay for debating captain '09, she let me change debating teams. :)
woott.


alex is funneehhhh. i wrote on her hand "this hand belongs to ABoydell".
aaaahhahahahhahahahahhhhaaaaaaaaaa. ugh im so depressed.


i love my cat, she's such a supermodel.
it's really hard to take photos of her. cuz she's just oh so famous.
she won't give me her autograph either.

what was i gonna talk about?
i've forgotten.
oh that's right.
blog.
blogs.
bloggers.
prophetic- that's the word of the day.
anyway.
bloggers.
blogs.
blog.
well, I blog cuz it's like a personal diary in a way, cuz i'm sad and i've got no one to talk to. so i type. i let my head speaks.
but there are somethings that i keep to myself, and to my closest friends.
cuz it's sad to remember it.
so, in a way, blog is like a diary. but you choose what to write on it that you want other people to see and don't.
so thurr.
i have to go shower.
cuz it's still 78.
taa
photos coming reall ssooooooonnn. ;D
i like cheeseeeee. yum yum,.

eww. i had the most disturbing dream just before it woke me up.
i hate disturbing dreams. they're really disturbing.
ugh.
eww.
eww.
eww.

i like scaring people- it's really quite entertaining.
this is such a sad world.
you look at those selfish greedy people and shiver.
gahh. print geog questions, save model on usb and print at school, med timeline, kiwi prac report, viola.

yesterday there were some leftover letter beads from clare and beccy's dna model.
everyone made a bracelet, whether it was their name or nickname or 'clare rox your world' everyone had one. but there wasn't a c or g left. cuz clare used the last c, and c and g were used for cytosine and guanine. so i was stuck and depressed. i was like. uhh. what should i make?
'help'.... 'phun' .....'life'..... 'yarr'
.... 'nadal' - the others won't let me make nadal, they said, " it would be a waste of beads to make the letters to form the name of the guy who has wedgie pants and always picks his butt every serve. " and i'm like awwwww. but i love nadal. but whatever.
so i decided to make 'yarr' cuz i'm a pirate. ;D but then my friend, not naming anyone dropped the beads, and we couldn't find the extra r.

so i was giving up by then..
doodle deeee dummm..

and then i was like
"ZOMG! MUZIIEK! HOW COULD I FORGET!!"
hah. so i ended up with a 'muziiek' bracelet. :D
(fyi: 'muziek' is 'music' in dutch, but i like the extra 'i')
we have to wear all of our bracelets on the next casual day. :)

DUBAI: STATEMENT FROM RAFA

"I am very disappointed not to be able to compete in Dubai but the doctor has advised me to stay home and rest after the pain I got on my knee in Rotterdam last week. It's nothing to be worried about but it needs some rest. I ask my fans and the tournament organizers to understand and I am sorry for this. Dubai is one of my favorite tournament, as you can tell, I have always liked playing there. The field is always great and more importantly the crowd is always very supportive of me. I expect to be back in competition the following week for the Davis Cup tie in Benidorm against Serbia and then traveling to Indian Wells and Miami."

hummmm.
rafa is to play in dubai on the 23rd of february.
i'm so sleep deprived.
i'm realllyyyyy tired..
and i have no reason to be.

tell me something claire can't do.
it feels like people are being mean to me today.
i seriously don't know what i did wrong.
dudeee.
american revolutionnn.

but some people were nice to me today.
they helped me feel better. :)
dilini, giving me her french fries.
eunice, making me laugh about trying to fall of the balcony. (i'm still laughing)
kim, trying to comfort me.
hilary, sitting with me in geography and talking to me.
beccy, pointing out that point for benefits of physical activity. lol.
charlie, my dog was nice to me today. :)

sighh.
french indian war, stamp act, boston tea party... what else?

dna model- pipecleaners, string, beads, tissues.

due next week
dna model, kiwi prac report, geog map, romeonjuliet character quotes, maths.
ughhh plz tell me if i missed out on anything.

viola.

life.

is.

what?


impossible is impossible

Telegraph cables hum


I love port wine aeroplane jelly.

Lol at Eunice as the horny nurse in Romeo and Juliet.

Eww at Vanessa Hudgens as Leah Clearwater.

Yay at Sam Sparro singing on dance tonight.

Eww at Morgan Spam. I'm so deleting all your ugly posts and banning you from posting. >=( you're not nice.

Yay at no homework tonight!

I love Rafael Nadal!
<3

Telegraph cables hum


I love port wine aeroplane jelly.

Lol at Eunice as the horny nurse in Romeo and Juliet.

Eww at Vanessa Hudgens as Leah Clearwater.

Yay at Sam Sparro singing on dance tonight.

Eww at Morgan Spam. I'm so deleting all your ugly posts.

Yay at no homework tonight!

I love Rafael Nadal!
<3

Telegraph cables hum

I love port wine aeroplane jelly.
Lol at Eunice as the horny nurse in Romeo and Juliet.
Eww at Vanessa Hudgens as Leah Clearwater.
Yay at Sam Sparro singing on dance tonight.
Eww at Morgan Spam. I'm so deleting all your ugly posts.
Yay at no homework tonight!
I love Rafael Nadal!
<3

We're so rich yet generous.
We've earned more than AUD$5,000 just from the Senior School, to donate to the bushfire relief fund. :)



It's really sad to see homes, lives, and happiness wiped away from lots of people..

This won't be forgotten in a million years.

This is really sad. :(

i don't feel well.
i have a headache and a stomach ache.

i didn't go to school this morning.
ugh.

I'M NOT CINDERELLA.
I DON'T WANT TO BE CINDERELLA.

Music

I shall talk about music.
What I'm really passionate about.
I'm currently listening to the playlist, I've just updated here on my blog.
Sorry to my next door neighbour, if this is too loud. I hope it's not.
Plus it's relaxing good music anyway.
Quite old, yet, nice. Unlike music these days. Eww.
Disgusting music that makes no sense, is what you often hear on the radio these days.
Music with no meaning.
Don't you, oh fellow reader, miss good music?
Music that makes you feel good inside, and music that can make you burst out into singing along or dancing.
I, myself, do infact miss good music.
Even if there are no words to it that you can sing along to, it's just relaxing and nice to listen it and enjoy it.
Music calms the soul.
Whether you're feeling angry, or depressed, music's always there.
Music is really stress relieving and heart warming.

I was born into a musical family.
And I've grown into loving music as well..

Sometimes, when everything else in this world seems so wrong. the only think you can turn to, is music.

Music is my life.

I love music. ♥

montague and double entrende
mon-tuh-gyoo and doo-blay-on-tron-day

that's shakespeare. (Y)

____________________

I'm learning to organize time more efficiently, and learning to eat a good balanced diet.
I ate Vita-Brits this morning, had Vita-Wheats for recess/morning tea, and a beetroot, carrot, lettuce, cheese and tomato salad. (don't ask, it's a complicated salad)
But, I was hungry when I got home, so I ate this asian beef rendand.

Eeh, here I am, full.

I'm going to practice viola at 9.

I only go on the computer for a few minutes now.
Like 40 minutes at the most.
Which is good stuff for me. :)

I need to do better though.

I just have to balance out work, and play.

I have maths homework.
Which, can be done tomorrow.

Yawn.

i'm officially obsessed with Rafael Nadal. ♥
lol, that's why i made this layout. :D

as you all know, rafa won the grand slam against federer.
Federer was upset and tears flowed from his eyes, but Rafa sympathized and hugged him. :)
he's so sweet.
i love rafa. :)

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hmmmmm today.
year 10. day 3.
eep.
there are exams for every subject minus electives this year.
i have to study hard.
no surfing randomly for hours on the net anymore.
no lazying around day dreaming.
times has changed.
i know that to climb every mountain, you have to start with one step.
and step by step, I will be able to achieve what I have been dreaming of achieving.

Every step takes time, I know that, but, it's that bad habit of laziness inside me that's stopping me from making progress, and holding me back to laze instead.

Every successful person worked hard, step by step to become what they are now as well, so I must do the same. :)

argh.
i just had to blog about this.
i've never been so interested in tennis like this before.
lol.
gosh. it was such a close match.
the world's number 1 vs. 14.

although with 13 seed differences, they were both equally awesome, to me.
I actually wanted Fernando Verdasco to win, even though I knew that he wasn't as experienced as Rafael Nadal.

I stayed up until 1 am this morning, to watch this break the record of the longest match in the australian open, a match that lasted for five hours and fourteen minutes.

frustration, anger, fatigue, cramp, tiredness, was visible there on the court last night and early this morning.

It was amazing to see Verdasco serve well over 200 km/h, and had been able to get 20 aces, while Nadal, only 12.
This proves that Fernando is not so far behind his fellow Spaniard friend, Rafa.

Verdasco, after this match, will definitely come up to the top 10 seed.

Both players deserve to win, in my eyes. ♥


SOURCE: australianopen.com

Verdasco hit 95 winners to Nadal’s 52.

The 14th seed had 76 unforced errors; the No.1 seed had only 25.

Nadal converted just four of 20 break point opportunities, while Verdasco was 2-for-4 on break point chances.

Nadal won 193 points to Verdasco’s 192 for the match.

The match lasted 314 minutes, an Australian Open record.